Flying into a beautiful tree

121511 Flying into a beautiful tree

I was dreaming that aliens came in the sky. Everyone was out of places to hide and did not know where to go. Many details were lost, but I remember I was in a room with a few others when the flying device of those aliens attached itself to the top of the room and started scanning with red light beaming. I somehow knew that they were recording what they saw.

For some reason, I was not too concerned and knew that I had secret power with me. At one point, I was out in the open. When I got a chance and had to escape, I consciously took off into the sky with my back facing the ground in a 45 degree angle. I felt so light and so easy and flew with full speed and energy, feeling totally free and powerful. After a while, I flew into a big tree with good view where I could see what's going on around and underneath me. This tree was full of energy, had big lush green leaves with smooth and shiny branches that extended beautifully. I felt very good in the tree. I looked up and was thinking to go higher up the tree where another portion of the branches looked within reach.

Then I was taking a few people to a recurrent market where I visit in my dream from time to time. This is a place where I felt very familiar and warm. I was wearing a elaborate robe which is a bit large for me. I looked at the mirror to make sure it fits. I took these people to have noodles for lunch. They all chip in.

111811 Sucked into a white tube

111811 Sucked into a white tube

I was dreaming until I came around my grandma's house. My awareness was that I was standing facing the front gate in the yard taking pictures with a few of my relatives (ancestors, although I didn't see their faces, I knew that they are ancestors). Then all of a sudden, my gaze into outside of the gate made my eyes fixated. Almost at the same time, I started to feel being sucked away from where I stood by a force. I was like what was going on. The force just completely overcome me and I became a swoosh and away I went.

I knew I was in altered state of consciousness but I kept thinking what this force could be. I simply went with it and didn't resist.

Now I felt that I was in this tube moving away. It's all white around me. I tried to see what is around me. I said "Awareness now" "Vision now", but I was still in the tube.

Then my awareness changed. I was in a room with three other people talking about something. A lamp caught on fire and we had to run out of the room.

In the last part, I was in this empty round hall with stone pillars around. I went through a narrow pathway to a desk where I would face the center of the hall studying something. I felt very familiar with this setting as if this is the place where I would stay away and focus and study, forever already.

As I woke up, I felt refreshed and healed all over. It is as if some blockage in me has been cleared. It never fails to amaze me every time this type of healing and clearing happens.

Coworker at a parlor

110111 Coworker at a parlor

I was walking in a school setting toward three other colleagues standing in the hallway near a stair. I didn't really see who they are, only sensing that they are like coworkers. I walked up to them to start a conversation. It is all very real and I almost just continued on with the dream. But all of a sudden, I wondered to myself: maybe I can try to fly and see what happen. Again I even thought: What a crazy idea. But I bravely just jumped up and was surprised that I was right again. Wow I can't believe how real the dream feels like reality.

After the jump, I continued going up into the air. The three other people seem to froze up and just not moving anymore. I left them behind and flew away.

I arrived at a series of parlors. I went in and out some of them to see what were in there. I don't remember what I saw. But then I was on my way to somewhere. I saw someone from work outside of the parlor looking around. She had a dress on. I said hi to her. She said she is going to eat lunch by herself. I asked her one more thing and she started to cry. She said people at work is having meeting about her. She is very sad. I told her that this is all a learning lesson. At least now she knows. This is just a matter of whether this is a match or not. I was surprised the tough woman as she is could broke down like that and how fast things played out. I am glad I was able to console her.

I wonder if she does know that people are not happy about her.

Recurrent Learning Hall

101711 Recurrent Learning Hall

I was in the dream among a group of people. As the conversation went on, all of a sudden, I suspected that this was a dream and that I probably could take off into the air. It felt strange though,because if this was not a dream,I could certainly make a fool of myself among all these people. So I just jumped up into the air and was so glad I was right. I was able to keep going up. I left the people behind and flew out.

I kept on going in the air along a railway and scanning the houses beneath. I wondered why I was following the railway, maybe so that this is something familiar? Next thing I knew, I arrived at a learning place where I have been in recurrent dreams. This is like a learning hall, but in the back of the hall, there is a place for me to either tutor or mentor the students there. I felt particularly familiar with the rare portion. From the rare portion, we can enter the learning hall, and then also to the front yard which is a bit hilly.

I came to the lunch room and lunch is fresh salad and vegetables, along with just a few Chinese dumplings, designed by the nutritionist from my work. I praised what a healthy lunch and we can even have dumplings.

Then I found a room in the back where I can catch some sleep there as the class ends. My cat was making some noise in the room and woke me up.

In this place, sometimes it became many more rooms and sometimes the whole place would beccome very tall, very grand, and there would be filled with many decorations that enhance the whole atmosphere. I need to find those journal entries or tape recordings to remember the details.

Act or forever in fear

I just saw a Frontline featuring report on PBS about a contemporary artist who has been drawing attention and followers from all over the globe. His name is Ai Weiwei

While watching him, I was totally captivated and moved by this fearless and selfless individual, almost like watching the big belly Buddha, with the kind of lightheartedness, depth and immenseness that just speak directly to our core. Many ordinary people in China and in the world also feel that he speaks out for them. But he is more than just speaking out. The fearless and selfless spirit of him is something else.

"There is just no slightest fear in him anywhere. He just has this ultimate freedom to do whatever he wants." "He very truthfully conveys his simple and sincere reaction to political and social phenomonans in his artwork." "He exposes and confronts the corruptions and problems in China." "Usually Chinese people are subtle in their showing of disagreement or defiance. He is different. He scolds the government, using the most aggressive words and act." "He would even put his own life on the line."

He has this unique approach of taking a camera to document his surroundings, many are just very simple slice of a moment in time, such as a face, two items side by side together, his cat sitting on the ground....When video taping devices are placed around his house, or when he was followed, confronted, filmed,photoed..he simply take out his smartphone, camera, or video recorder to film them right back and broadcast it in real time on the internet.

People all over are worried about him. Then bad things started to happen. He has been house arrested, beaten, stopped when trying to go out of the country, and his house and studio have been demolished. The demolition of his place was documented by himself and is going to be another large scale of artwork.

Many compare him to Andy Warhol but better. I would equate this way of acting with the truth, the freedom, the fearless, and the selfless. This is the way of nothingness and everything else.

And I really want to know how he can act so strongly and fearlessly.

I remembered how hard it was to step into a new existence without my ex. I still remembered how I did it. It was scary. Every day and every moment, you try to put one foot in front of the other, but do not believe your foot is worth a movement, or do not feel you have any strength left to move your foot, or do not believe next step would be any better, or you are even consumed by the negative doom that all there is is hell,what foot?....Trying to give up the lifeline would mean confronting the same thing------the unknown, the fear, the weakness of moving those feet, the doom.

Security is inside, freedom is outside, and fear stands in between.

I still haven't had to confront with living with no life line. Having been so earnestly building a life of our own capability, we continue to maintain it, and are kept in this self created ego trap. We feel fearful of break out because we have never known what outside really is like.So we continue to stay inside of this secure ego trap. I broke free one layer of fear, but have never broke out from this ultimate layer. So I continue to be in fear, yet I really want to break free so badly.

Here is this individual who is standing right outside of the fear trap, so free, so selfless.

"Why would you keep doing this? You make us so worried. They are going to do bad things to you," his mom said to him. " What is there to worry about? If they are going to do bad things to me, we don't have control over that."

"We need to act. We need to go through it and to feel every bit and details of it. This is the only way to know it( and get over it)."

I realize that standing inside of the fear trap looking outward trying to come up with something to prepare for the feared situation doesn't work. But this is what has been our excuse to stay in.

The only way to beat fear is to go through it. That's the only way to know every bit of it and that's how you can beat it.

"People thought I am not afraid.I am actually most afraid, but I would say I am very brave. We need to act because if we don't act,( the result of not acting would be worse than acting).

I figure what he mean was that if we act, the worse thing that could happen is to die,but if we don't act,the wrong continue on. The "something" he believes in outweigh his own existence.

This has been very clear in my awareness, but he did provide the one more enlightening step: "Act."

What else is there to said or analyze??

092311 falling and UFO in the sky

092311

First it was dreaming of my deceased father coming home. Then I was driving a magical car with my brother. Some guys came in the car and threw us out. Before being thrown out, I managed to grab some items from the car. The I used magic and put out a lot of bubbles in the air to trap these guys inside, when they came out of the car.

This was a night of waking up and then going back to sleep.

At one point, I became aware of myself sleeping in bed. Suddenly, I started to fall into the bed and kept on falling, as if being sucked into a swirling sand hole and kept on sinking into the hole. It was very powerful and intense falling sensation . The intensity and how real it felt took me by surprise. I have never had such a big falling. I somehow became so hot that I woke up from the heat.

After I put this experience in my phone pad, I went back to sleep again. In a while, I found myself in a room where people come in to spend a night for free. There was an open field outside. All of a sudden, a disc appeared in the lat afternoon glowing sky and people all saw it. It flew around. I took out my phone to take picture after picture. Then it started to create a lot of patterns just like corp circles. The sky was full of the patterns next to the clouds. It was just amazing. Another guy was there taking pictures too. I went into the room. Some girls were watching tv and missed the whole thing. I went into another room. A guy recognized me and call out my name. I went out to walk around. This time there were even more patterns in the sky. I was amazed. What are they trying to say, I kept thinking. At the end, there were two pairs of humongous sunglasses in the sky, as large as they can be, seem to be watching me and following me. I quickly took a picture and then went in the room.

Then I seem to be shooting a movie as a lead actress with another lead actor. I went into a car and people sent him in. The next scene is that he is going to look at what I got on my camera.

This experience reminded me a dream/experience I had early this year, in which I was brought into a UFO ship. In part of the dream, I had a da ja vu about being the center of a famous movie or famous story all my life, but had just realized it when I was followed by the ship

Can you stand being with yourself?

Tense parts of the body, breathing can't go down to the belly yet, I am not going to sit one hour today, tired, there is always tomorrow.......

This is not me

Push on

This is not me

This is not me.

Destroy layers and layeres of attachment, defense, denial, pretending, excuses, delaying. The truth is beneath and underneath.

All of a sudden, the familiar tightness of the eyelids happened.

Misty smoky light formed in the vision and started to flow around. I see this to be the embodiment of thoughts, emotions, and sensations transforming in front of my closed eyes.

Belly breathing becomes automatic.

Then it occurred to me that the road leading to here was such a hassle. Then I felt like I am my own best friend looking at poor me kicking and struggling earlier. I seemed to become two. One part look at the other part. I am my own best friend. No one can look at me as closely and as totally understanding as myself.

Can you stand being with yourself? Can you stand being with yourself?.........

The two Is felt even more closer and even more understanding and everything in the awareness becomes so clear!!!

I am aware. Everything in the awareness is I.

Physical body and other bodies

During the peak and intensity of my experiences a few years back, one thing I found and I now realize, is that in order to go to higher dimensions, I can not have a dense energy in this physical body stuffed with emotions, thoughts, memories. I basically need to process them all until I feel light, blissful, and reborn. With heavy emotion and mind set and stress of daily life, all I have are experiences manifested with my own emotional contents waiting to be processed, and hinders me to see into the real astral setting.

After daily hour long intense meditation which I could not wait to do every night and morning, many physical sensations, emotions, thoughts, and memories went through very intense, rapid, and fundamental processing. Among other events, two major electrical current like flows shooting out of my bodies, the results were an ecstatic feeling and sensation throughout my physical body. Until that happened, I had never known I can feel that wonderful all over my body, for a duration of days each time. It was just like a rebirth, totally undesirable with words. I would say that this transformation would be the thing I was here to achieve in this lifetime.

With my physical body rid of distractions and then full of inner energy that has always been in me, somehow I longed for and also totally believed in and easily focused when I thought of the word of "God". The transformation didn't take me away from people. On the contrary, I felt much closer to others. Everyone felt just like me. Close friend and family felt more significant than ever. I become really care about their state of well beings in a way that's more intimate and in a deeper level. Every night before falling asleep, I automatically sent prayer and love to my father in heaven and my brother who suffers from addiction. And then I would just find myself in these beautiful landscapes flying around the mountain and valley full of light and healing energy.

During the day, I walked around actually feeling that my energy body was flying inside of me. I felt so light, so powerful, totally admiring and adoring myself. At night, the same thing, people in my dreams or experiences admired and adore me.

It is as if my physical body is just another layer of all these energy bodies, similarly light, energetic, full of love, full of wonders. Physical body is not one that get stressed, get tired, used for work to make money, hanging around to defend, pretend, attack, gain, and being unhappy and unfulfilled. Physical body felt to me equally wonderful, magically, and powerful just like my other layers of energy bodies!!

I felt like I totally understand what God is. I felt God. He was everywhere inside and out.

Choosing the discomfort

It is like going through a withdrawal of an addiction. As if suffering from a loss, I feel the soreness in the body, a little light headed, feeling abandoned and unloved, wandering from one thing to the next, and mostly the discomfort of doubt and uncertainty.

I have been facing the challenge of giving up my last lap of attachment, my biggest challenge of all.

Good opportunities came up. Normally I would be up for it. This time, I can see that it will just be more mind based drama in another setting, to fill the never ending void of ego and self-insecurity. I no longer want to be in that pursuit. I chose to stay put and look at the chances go by in front of me.


The decision comes with confronting and enduring the struggle of self doubt and insecurity. My whole body scream and challenge this unusual decision.


"But it is disappointing not to take the opportunity. You would be in higher level doing things with greater importance and impact. Everyone is watching. They will now know that you are just as good as how big you can get."


"People are getting ahead and I am not going anywhere" " I am now falling behind" .......


This is uncomfortable and unsettling. I normally jumped to challenge and opportunity. This time I totally chose to go through the discomfort and dread, staying put and watching others


getting ahead.


"Will I be okay without being bigger and doing more?" "How will people see me now?" "Why were the opportunities there and I am here?"


I do see work as service. In fact, I am totally shifting it to the service mind set, not a mean to advance status or achievement. I no longer feel status and achievement to be relevant. Service, on the other hand, no matter where I am, will serve needs of others. Empower, encourage, help out, ......


I told myself I am going through a withdrawal of addicting to a path of self importance, a path of hiding behind achievement from being real and being true in relation to other people.


I had never really learned how to relate to people, other than assuring them my value with achievement and status. I was most comfortable to be around people when I was able to let them know where I am professionally.


However, there has been a shift these past few years. I no longer like to mention what I do when meeting people, simply carrying on conversations. I started to see high achievement in a different light. I also no longer pay attention to status of others. Everyone feels the same to me. They are just like me and I am just like them.

This is the last lap of growth. This is the last lap of transformation. It's not intense or rapid, but I am heading toward the right direction.

A floating empty workplace

8/4/11

Last night I was dreaming that I was on the phone in my office, talking about something that occupied my full attention. Then a staff person walked in looking a little different than usual. She dressed and acted a bit out of her style, which alerted something in me, enough for me to put the urgent phone on hold and came out of the office to see what's going on with her.

So I walked out of the office and then was shocked by what I saw. The whole place was empty. The reception area, the big refrigerator, all the chairs and tables, all gone. All the decor and displays on the walls disappeared. My vision turned into the conference room--same thing, everything is gone, and the wall is completely bare. What a shocking sight!

I instantly knew that this is not real. What a strange place and atmosphere! The whole place event felt like it's floating.

Since it's not real, I started to walk into the wall to see what would happen and I walked right into it. I then try to float up, and then up I went and into the ceiling.

Next thing I know, I was in a big hall with pillars. A guy feeling like my brother was moving very fast in it, almost flying. A cat looking like my cat, but with big beaming red eyes was running around. It then jumping toward me, but landed on a concrete divider on its neck. It broke my heart to see that distressed poor thing. Did it just break its neck?

And then I remembered and also believed that this is not real.

As I became deeply relieved, I woke up.

woken up by a woman in black

8/3/11





I have been having a minor infection and is coughing and have been tired than usual. Still trying to find the balance toward work and spirituality--how not to be too sticky about work, but enough to sustain my livelyhood and spirituality.





Last night in the half sleep half awake state, all of a sudden I found that an older woman was sitting next to my bed looking at me. I kept looking at her to see who she is. She dressed in black, has shoulder length salty hair and a little chubby. She looked at me, and started to smile when she saw that I noticed her. I then realized that I do not know her, and that I am half awake half sleep.





Once I realized that, I rolled out of my bed and found myself falling through the floors and then into the ground. I normally like to float away or fly up, but it felt like I was pulled down and down





The next thing I know, it is another room where the feeling is like I just woke up from it. I got up from that bed and found that a side door was wide open the whole night. Outside was a deserted trail leading right to this door. I was surprised how and why this side door had been open the whole night. What a scary looking dark woods down that route. I quickly closed the door.





A guy with military uniform was cleaning my room but then he got interested in me. I told him I am still sick. Then I was going to take a shower. A few white uniformed nurses showed up and will see my room. I know I am only staying in that room temporarily.

052211 Short awakening in the void

052211 Short awakening in the void

I seemed to be in an unconscious dream and then all of a sudden, I became aware to be in a tube where there is just nothing, absolutely nothing around me. It is as if waking up from a series of noises, vague impressions, commotions, and my own thoughts, and then everything withdrew from me, only nothingness, silence, emptiness, and void left. Everything just stopped all of a sudden. Only my own awareness and dead silence.

I asked myself: What happened? What is this? Then in about 5 seconds, the familiar realization came to me. " I just become lucid." The realization always come with an excitement. I know I can do anything I want now. I decided that I would jump up and fly. Before jumping up, I felt this surge of energy inside me as if a jet plane about to take off.

I know I was ascending. I kept on ascending, but did not encounter anything in my way or my conscioussness. I kept seeing bright light around, but an opened umbrella also was following me. I was clearly seeing light through the flowery pattern on the unbrella as it kinda ascending alongside of me.

Where am I going? Why does it take so long? I was getting impatient. The movement also was using up the energy and I was wearing out. Then my energy ran out and I lost my lucidity again.

Lately I have been working through the final layer of my attachment and was trying to untangle the emotional stickiness toward issues at work, which I has never dealth with during my first awakening. This time, I had to look at the attachment head on. It has been an rollercoaster.

I have become very sensitive to any type of pressure or stress. Any amount of disalignment of body and mind, it would translate into a tightness and tension in part of the body. When that is perceived, I would have to work through it, often through the adjustment of my own mind and awareness. Often times, it is through right mind and right action. My body can no longer put up with unfairness, dishonesty, or untruth.

As I woke up, I felt the tightness and soreness in some parts of my body. Then a subtle idea came to me: "Release it to the universe." Do not try to control. Release it and trust.

Just like that, all the tightness and soreness was let go and disappeared.

Does death feel like OBE

050711 Does death feel like OBE?

I was in a very long and lucid dream where I was captured by a terriorist and was taken off site with a few others. On the truck, I was standing outside of the rare of the truck one a piece of footstep, and I thought to myself that if they shoot later to the rare of the truck, I am going to be the very first one got hit, and wished so badly to be among those who were inside the truck. Midway, we were off the truck to be in a store. I was buying an umbrella and was trying it out. The terriorist told me not to bring a stick like that maybe afraid of it being used as a weapon. I kinda mentally assured him that this was not meant to be a weapon. At the check out counter, I told the cashier that I wanted this umbrella. It turned out to be a very stirdy and trendy one.

The terriorist told me to go on the truck again. I thought to myself that there is a chance I am going to die and this is the last moment of me on earth. I thought of a few food items I put in the fridge and feel sad that they will be left there. Me and another friend were called into another store. We were standing there with another woman who was not one of us, but with whom I felt a connection. (Now that I think about her, she was more like there to assist my passing?) The terriorist stood in the front. The woman kinda telepathically let me know that we were going to be shut. Just like that, I saw a gun aiming at us. I got shut point blank.

There was a brief moment of sadness and sorrow, feeling that now I no long belong to this world and was about to depart from all that I had. It was a weird and emotional realization. Howevere, I was over joyed when I started to separate from my physical body. I just floated right out of myself into the air, looking at all the people around including my killer. I was so excited. I flew very fast to the faces of everyone and waved to their faces and no one seemed to see me. I knew that I am now dead. It feels so light and so clear. I have been like this before when I was out of body flying. Every time I am out of body, I am just so free and full of joy. I am totally free now.

I circled the room a few times and shouted in ecastacy. Then I quickly flew away outside. There seemed to be a transition into a different world, because although the surrounding is the same clarity to me, I instinctly knew that this is not the physical world. I flew around and almost bumpt into another soul who seemed to be lost or uncouncious about where he was. I thought to myself, so I am in this in between demonsion now? But I didn't feel like I am lost, since this felt like another OBE that I have been many times when I was living. I purposefully bumpt into that guy who seemed to be lost walking around. My body pass right through him and there is an energy impact to it.

I somehow was drawn to a powerful and vast green ocean. The water is so green and the impact and sound of the wave is so empowering. I just felt like swimming in it. So I flew into the water and stayed near the shore where there were a few others. I just felt eager to be in that energetic impact from the wave. It's so healing and It is where I needed to be. All that sensations and sounds and impact fill my soul with joy and awe.

Is this how death feels like--another OBE??

Anything we try to control, controls us

How to face the fear of an ending of a good thing which we do not want it to stop--health, job, professional edge, control, vibriant years, relationship, control, power, self confidence, control, ....

How to face the fear of losing control?

We can't be prepared for this.

We can only accept the fact that, in fact, the time will come when we lose control. We might be able to control a certain thing for a time, for now, for a certain degree, but control is only relative. Give it enough time, we will eventually lose it.

Will we be okay when we lose control?

Can we be okay knowing that no matter what we do, actually one day we will not be okay--health, job, professional edge, control, vibriant years, relationship, control, power, self confidence, control...

Will worry about it make it any better?

Can we even control anything?

When seeing suffering, decline, failure, harm, injustice, illness, death, bad things, evil in our surroundings, if our reaction are emotions of horror, disappointment, fear, condemation, rejection, denial..., that means we will not be okay when that day finally come when it's our turn.

To be fearless, we can only accept, surrender, be willing, be humble, to the fact that we can't be in control forever.

We surrender, not because we fear, and not because we don't want the fear of losing contorl. We surrender because the more we are aware, the more we see that the only thing we can control is ourseelves. No one can harm us, no one can make us suffer, no one can make anything a bad thing, except us.

When we really look at any sufferings, a big part of it is the shame, and the loss of pride and dignity that goes with it-- How are my friends and family going to view me if I don,t have a job, if I have cancer, if I am homeless, if I get fired, if am a complete failure, if I am the center of attack or scandal? Everyone else is okay while I am not.

While we try to control our destiny, the fear actually control us all our life.

In fact, while we are worrying about the arriving of such a day, people actually probably only spend 2% of their attention on anything about you. Who cares?

Anything we try to control, actually controls us.

Let go of control of everything, then nothing can control us.

If your demise is just like the falling leaves of the tree outside, or the disappear of the squarrel on a tree, which is all a part of the nature, doesn't it feel so much lighter?

What it is to fear? It is going to come. Nature is not all pretty and perfect. You and I shouldn't be always pretty and perfect either.

The fact that we are here, and the fact that we are a part of the nature, we are as magical, cute, and as fragile as the squarrel on that tree.

Courage of testing a dream reality

042211

In this experience, I was at my grandma's farm doing something which I don't remember. Then I saw a long lost friend whom I haven't seen since college. She and I were going to lunch together. I went along, but kept thinking “I don’t remember I have this arrangement,” with the strange awareness that I am in the past. Something about the time, space, and myself do not match.

We walked and chatted and started to go downstairs. All of a sudden the suspicion got the better of me "This is strange. Why do I feel that she is not real?" I need to test this out." Whenever I have this type of awakening in dreams, it is a very strange moment and requires courage to go through with the verification, because normally we do not question our reality. I am never sure whether I am in a real or unreal world, until I have the courage to do something crazy to test it.

So despite the concern of being redicured by people around, I very bravely walked toward the wall of the stairs. To my amazement, I walked into the wall and half of me was inside of the building and half was outside hanging in the air. "Wow, this is a dream world! " I came back into the staircase and the whole setting started to fade away. My friend disappeared as well.

The scene is now a park where there are trees and plants around. So I started to think very hard what I wanted to do. I didn't see anybody around me. I sat down on the ground and started to do a yoga post that I felt like doing. Then I looked around and saw another girl doing the same post in a distance, as if mirroring me.

The posture seemed to relax me and I felt sluggish from here. I continued to do something. I remember that I saw a huge funnel of black cloud appeared from the sky to the ground, then thunder going from the sky to the ground. I went into a house to avoid the bad weather.

030811 Floating and then became lucid

030811 Floating and then became lucid

I was dreaming being in my childhood home and all of a sudden I noticed the way I move forward is a bit unusual. My view of vision seemed to be a camera floating forward under water in slow motion. I kept thinking why I move that way--the view was floating but with my vision changing from bad to being able to see into fiber of things in front of me.

So I was now in the third floor of my childhood home, where the buddha shrine room still is today. The front of the room has changed from its real appearance. The wall has totally changed, with old dirt wall from bottom to the top in three sides. I actually couldn't see clear at first as I move around. Things became clear and then to sharp images as I approached closer.

I saw a door. Someone seemed to have opened it for me but I didn't see a hand or a person doing it, or maybe I was just simply seeing through the wall. I saw the old bamboo construction inside the dirt wall. This is definitely old fashion construction, maybe even from another time, totally different from my childhood time.

The front of the room was now empty. All the furniture that should be there weren't there. As I was thinking this can't be, it dawned on me that I was dreaming and floating, and had just become lucid.

I started to think very hard what I want to do. I always wanted to fly when I become lucid, so I wave my arms trying to take off. I waved and waved and wasn't sure I did take off. I asked if anyone would like to make contact. There was no response.

Then I noticed a road appeared next to me. A dog was walking next to me and then another smaller dog appeared. The large dog was crowding the smaller dog away. Then a crow appeared. The dog bit the crow and broke its wing. I felt bad for the two animals, especially the crow. Then I became sluggish.

013111 Memory or dream?--UFO encounter

The times when I dream or experience UFO encounter, including this one, it really feel more like a memory than a dream. It was very real and I felt the experiences with vivid sensation and emotions.

In this dream, someone was making a public speech but didn't speak well. People are disappointed. I feel bad for him. As we made our way out, I somehow got hit. However, I have the urge to tell my friend that I have special experiences. When I escaped to the top of a hill with two others, we kept talking about what was chasing us.

Then all of a sudden, a red "X' appear in the night sky approaching us and then hovered high above the hill we were at. I thought to myself "Wow, an UFO." Then it let out a spot light to the ground and focusing on me. I figured it was the sulfur smell from whatever I got hit earlier. "They were following you," says my friend.

The whole experience became very familiar to me, as if this scene happened before. I kept thinking why am I experiencing myself as both the lead character of the scene, and at the same time the seeing eye of the whole thing?? And then I realized that I am the center of a familiar well known story (almost a movie), and I had forgotten, all my life.

Then I was lifted up in the light and toward the UFO. "Wow, I am being abducted by the aliens." As I went up, I was enjoying the night view from high above and the feeling of ascending. However, my memory seemed to stop from here and skipped to when I came back to the ground.

Then it seemed like people around me changed. They are very nice to me. Even animals came to me as if attracted by some force.