092311 falling and UFO in the sky

092311

First it was dreaming of my deceased father coming home. Then I was driving a magical car with my brother. Some guys came in the car and threw us out. Before being thrown out, I managed to grab some items from the car. The I used magic and put out a lot of bubbles in the air to trap these guys inside, when they came out of the car.

This was a night of waking up and then going back to sleep.

At one point, I became aware of myself sleeping in bed. Suddenly, I started to fall into the bed and kept on falling, as if being sucked into a swirling sand hole and kept on sinking into the hole. It was very powerful and intense falling sensation . The intensity and how real it felt took me by surprise. I have never had such a big falling. I somehow became so hot that I woke up from the heat.

After I put this experience in my phone pad, I went back to sleep again. In a while, I found myself in a room where people come in to spend a night for free. There was an open field outside. All of a sudden, a disc appeared in the lat afternoon glowing sky and people all saw it. It flew around. I took out my phone to take picture after picture. Then it started to create a lot of patterns just like corp circles. The sky was full of the patterns next to the clouds. It was just amazing. Another guy was there taking pictures too. I went into the room. Some girls were watching tv and missed the whole thing. I went into another room. A guy recognized me and call out my name. I went out to walk around. This time there were even more patterns in the sky. I was amazed. What are they trying to say, I kept thinking. At the end, there were two pairs of humongous sunglasses in the sky, as large as they can be, seem to be watching me and following me. I quickly took a picture and then went in the room.

Then I seem to be shooting a movie as a lead actress with another lead actor. I went into a car and people sent him in. The next scene is that he is going to look at what I got on my camera.

This experience reminded me a dream/experience I had early this year, in which I was brought into a UFO ship. In part of the dream, I had a da ja vu about being the center of a famous movie or famous story all my life, but had just realized it when I was followed by the ship

Can you stand being with yourself?

Tense parts of the body, breathing can't go down to the belly yet, I am not going to sit one hour today, tired, there is always tomorrow.......

This is not me

Push on

This is not me

This is not me.

Destroy layers and layeres of attachment, defense, denial, pretending, excuses, delaying. The truth is beneath and underneath.

All of a sudden, the familiar tightness of the eyelids happened.

Misty smoky light formed in the vision and started to flow around. I see this to be the embodiment of thoughts, emotions, and sensations transforming in front of my closed eyes.

Belly breathing becomes automatic.

Then it occurred to me that the road leading to here was such a hassle. Then I felt like I am my own best friend looking at poor me kicking and struggling earlier. I seemed to become two. One part look at the other part. I am my own best friend. No one can look at me as closely and as totally understanding as myself.

Can you stand being with yourself? Can you stand being with yourself?.........

The two Is felt even more closer and even more understanding and everything in the awareness becomes so clear!!!

I am aware. Everything in the awareness is I.