Knowing is Healing

  At work, the one and a half month since mid September has been most intense. Three separate licening, national accreditation, and federal review are all happening in these 45 days this year. National re-accreditation of the center just took place last week. Center re-licensing is this week. The triennial review for the city is the whole week of the end of October.

  Before bed, I sit and see that the tense part of the body let go. On weekend, I still walk into the woods to go into myself. Once relaxing every part of the body, the last part to let go is the solar plexus, uptight and rigid. Once lowering the almost suspended stomach area, the swaying and shaking start, as the inner energy let loose. The rocking and flowing get the inner energy into every nook and cranny of the body. I am often amazed by this self healing, as the tired body gets a little sore for a while, and then becomes soothed, balanced, and re-energized.

  The same kind of soothing and healing also happen during and after a vividly meaningful dream or experience. They are often the type of dreams where it is full of light, as if directly underneath the sky full of warm and beaming light. The prominent feature is the bright, beautiful sky in the background, and in many of them, everything happens high in the sky. I and my partner (whoever they are) travel by flying, or flying in some kind of vehicle. One time I went high up taking an escalator. I went high up and then looking down, feeling very good and healed to be high in the sky. At the same time, I was strucked by the fact of doing everything high up in the sky.

  One of the frequest theme of these dreams is visiting a temple where I stayed for summer break when I was young. In the dream, the temple often become very grand, very bright, and even hanging high up in the sky, as I approach it.

  After these bright warm dreams in the sky, I often wake up with my body soothed and healed all over.

  Even before this unusual time, there were incidents where the workload and pressure take its toll. It can be too much, as if I am coming down with something. As I try to meditation, all the inner energy running around in the body like a storm going. I can see in front of my closed eyes the energy rushing around in chaos. Incredibly, this is also the time when it is the easiest to simply observe. So I would sit and watch with my eyes closed,letting the energy run itself. It is as if the energy knows what to do. As it runs and flows, I can feel that the body is re-balance, and re-adjust itself. The next day, I would be amazed that I am even better than usual, when the previous night I was supposedly coming down with something.

When knowing ourselves enough, the healing and balancing seems to become automatic.