Lower self connection-before connecting with higher self

 "You need to connect with you lower self, before you can connect with you higher self."

  This is what Drunvalo Melchizedek learned from Hawaiian kahunas people. He was trying to connect with higher self and asked his angels for guidance. An kahunas aboriginal native showed up at his workshops and was asked by Drunval to teach (Aboriginal people or others often coming from everywhere to his workshops to deliver messages). The teaching was that we need to connect with lower self before we can connect with higher self, which Drunvalo finally realized why the technique of contacting higher self he himself has been teaching was not easy for many people. Drunvalo shared in his book "Ancient flower of life" and also his video.
  Lower self is our inner child, the part where everything is a wonder around us. We perceive everything as if receiving them for the first time. We are totally open, enchanted, and child like, no matter what comes our way.
  Drunvalo said that we need to be able to connect with the part of us that is genuine and innocent, and when mother earth feel we are ready, we will be able to connect with our higher self, which is the all knowing, God like, heaven father nature.
  As adults, it, s almost not easy to know how to be child like. But there are ways and we can all relate to it. The 2 things he mentioned are going into nature and travelling to different places.
  This is so true. After meditating for 5, 6 years, and 1 year of yoga, I just couldn, t resist the urge of going into nature, even though the biggest concern is the fear of walking in the woods.
  I realized that is what i have been doing for the past 4 years--spending time in the nature every chance i get.
  The two day retreat on the weekend started in late November or early December 2009. Yoga seemed to set me free even further. I felt compelled to go into nature. In nature, surrounded by trees, earth, air, light, sounds of animal, and the serenity, we find that there us a child within us who is always contented, happy, curious, playful, and aware.

  The first few times were terrifying to be walking by myself, even though there are always other walkers depending on the weather. Winter also came quickly in December. I walked on the main trails for the whole winter. When spring came, I started to explore some secondary trails and absolutely love it.

  In March, I met the geese family and visited them every chance I got. I would watch them and then sat by the lake to meditate. It was a spiritual experience. I went to the lake rain or shine. Plenty of times, there was no one by the lake, but me and the geese, when it was groomy rainy days. I hunkered down in my umbrella sitting by the lake. Those are the special moments.

  I would walk anywhere and imagine what it's like to live out here. I just want to be with the tree and to be in the nature. I want to eat the plants that surrounds me and take them inside of me. I go to grocery store to look for them. I love all kinds of fruit and vegetable. By October, I bought a juicer and started to juice every morning. It was just so rejuvenizing and healing.

  When winter arrived again, I was sad that the good time is about to end for a while. When snow turned the whole place into a winter wonderland, I put on snow shoe and continue to walk into the upper lake into the lower lake, until when the snow is too deep to walk in any way.

  Winter is totally a different world. With fewer people around, the whole place is quiet, tranquil, serene, and magical. The white snow, the beaming sun, the empty branches, trees covered with ice sculptures...the whole place feel almost like a holly temple which fill you with awe and joy. It really transforms you, humble you, and as a result, you feel that there is not much more to say. Just experience it. Just take this in. Just come more often. Just come any chance you get.

  Near the middle of January, I was only able to stay on the main road. The snow, the sun, and sometimes the cloudiness turn the whole place into a surreal place. I almost feel like I am finally in the real wild. I feel like I finally become one with nature

  To be self sufficient, have the nature all to myself, is what I really want to experience. 

  One part of my nature walk is sitting by the water and meditate and do energy work.

  I would often weep while sitting by the lake meditating or when I walk. Later on, I found that the weeping usually happen when I go into a further relaxing state and the body react with a almost appreciative and ecstatic manner. Such a transition is unknown to me and hence surprise even within different part of the body and soul, as if they just met for the first time.

  When spring come again, I was sad that the serene temple would once again change into another world
  Nature is the temple where we remember and go back to our home inside of ourselves. From there, we get to really receive the messages from our higher home.

An Initiation?

1/8/14   An Initiation?

  In the dream, I came to a room full of a group of people. They are here to witness something. I was ushered into the middle of the room. There stood a tall wide foreheaded man. A voice inside me said that he is a powerful alien. He seemed to be about to pass over. There is bright strong energy emanating from around him.
  I was brought to stand in front of him, surrounded by everyone. I then just let go of both of my legs and let my both bended legs standing on the tip of my toes. I stood like that and was totally without using any strength, kinda like in a lotus position standing up half way. Not sure what the purpose was , but it felt magical, powerful, and ritualistic. I felt like this is what i am supposed to do and was not thinking at all. People around me sang or chanted and were amazed. I was amazed too. The man was there either helping or was witnessing as well.
I felt like I am at least also powerful and was there to be seen as well.
It felt almost like an initiation of some sort???

Precognitive Dream Leading the Path

   It was Thanksgiving in 2012. I prayed very sincerely before falling asleep for highest vibration coming through. Then I had a very vivid dream. Here is the entry

A Class in a White Stone Building

  A few months later, the Shamanic Journeying program started in March 2013. I found the teacher and her place to be familiar from the dream.
  Leontine is confident, tall, straightforward, one of the best for what she does. Her house is even more amazingly familiar from the dream. It's all white, with a lot of flower patterns in some part. She also has a dog. Her cat reached up to the table and try to eat the flower. The chairs are in a circle. The teacher was teaching me some type of art lesson in the dream. In the real session, it also involves making costumes, mask, power items. The teaching is all sacred, ancient, time tested, and universal. In the dream, it felt as though the material were a bit old but were all classics. There was also something about paying with checks.....
  There was also opportunity to be filmed by BBC TV at one time too.
  So many things were in the dream, with a little variation.
 The Apprenticeship program is going on to year two in March.
  It has been a great growing and expanding experience. The meeting is one Saturday each month, each time starting with praying to the directions, inner diamond light meditation, and then journeys to other realms to meet higher beings to ask for guidance. We learned a wide range of shamanic practices--meeting our spirit guides and power animal, dismemberment, retrieval, dream work, psycho pump, merging, soul retrieval....It did not come natural and took a bit of getting used to. But the structure of the day, the sharing, the support, the practice, and even the environment all make it a wonderful experience. At the end of the day, I feel like gone through a series of healing and am energized and uplifted.
  It was about the 3rd session when I learned the merging technique, that's when all of a sudden I started to want to do it every day. I started to merge with Kwan Yin'd love and light, which opened up all new levels of awareness and expansion.
  The more into the program, the more the dream I had was verified.
  This has turned out to be a growing experience for me, especially the merging and communicating with Kwan Yin and higher beings. The path feels more and more solid and certain. It has now leading me to work further with divine light and vibration.
  One side note is that before I signed up for the program, the teacher emailed me and said that her spirit guide told her it would be good for me to be in apprenticesip program, as opposed to another series. She said she never had her guide telling her about any other potential students.