052211 Short awakening in the void

052211 Short awakening in the void

I seemed to be in an unconscious dream and then all of a sudden, I became aware to be in a tube where there is just nothing, absolutely nothing around me. It is as if waking up from a series of noises, vague impressions, commotions, and my own thoughts, and then everything withdrew from me, only nothingness, silence, emptiness, and void left. Everything just stopped all of a sudden. Only my own awareness and dead silence.

I asked myself: What happened? What is this? Then in about 5 seconds, the familiar realization came to me. " I just become lucid." The realization always come with an excitement. I know I can do anything I want now. I decided that I would jump up and fly. Before jumping up, I felt this surge of energy inside me as if a jet plane about to take off.

I know I was ascending. I kept on ascending, but did not encounter anything in my way or my conscioussness. I kept seeing bright light around, but an opened umbrella also was following me. I was clearly seeing light through the flowery pattern on the unbrella as it kinda ascending alongside of me.

Where am I going? Why does it take so long? I was getting impatient. The movement also was using up the energy and I was wearing out. Then my energy ran out and I lost my lucidity again.

Lately I have been working through the final layer of my attachment and was trying to untangle the emotional stickiness toward issues at work, which I has never dealth with during my first awakening. This time, I had to look at the attachment head on. It has been an rollercoaster.

I have become very sensitive to any type of pressure or stress. Any amount of disalignment of body and mind, it would translate into a tightness and tension in part of the body. When that is perceived, I would have to work through it, often through the adjustment of my own mind and awareness. Often times, it is through right mind and right action. My body can no longer put up with unfairness, dishonesty, or untruth.

As I woke up, I felt the tightness and soreness in some parts of my body. Then a subtle idea came to me: "Release it to the universe." Do not try to control. Release it and trust.

Just like that, all the tightness and soreness was let go and disappeared.