052211 Short awakening in the void
I seemed to be in an unconscious dream and then all of a sudden, I became aware to be in a tube where there is just nothing, absolutely nothing around me. It is as if waking up from a series of noises, vague impressions, commotions, and my own thoughts, and then everything withdrew from me, only nothingness, silence, emptiness, and void left. Everything just stopped all of a sudden. Only my own awareness and dead silence.
I asked myself: What happened? What is this? Then in about 5 seconds, the familiar realization came to me. " I just become lucid." The realization always come with an excitement. I know I can do anything I want now. I decided that I would jump up and fly. Before jumping up, I felt this surge of energy inside me as if a jet plane about to take off.
I know I was ascending. I kept on ascending, but did not encounter anything in my way or my conscioussness. I kept seeing bright light around, but an opened umbrella also was following me. I was clearly seeing light through the flowery pattern on the unbrella as it kinda ascending alongside of me.
Where am I going? Why does it take so long? I was getting impatient. The movement also was using up the energy and I was wearing out. Then my energy ran out and I lost my lucidity again.
Lately I have been working through the final layer of my attachment and was trying to untangle the emotional stickiness toward issues at work, which I has never dealth with during my first awakening. This time, I had to look at the attachment head on. It has been an rollercoaster.
I have become very sensitive to any type of pressure or stress. Any amount of disalignment of body and mind, it would translate into a tightness and tension in part of the body. When that is perceived, I would have to work through it, often through the adjustment of my own mind and awareness. Often times, it is through right mind and right action. My body can no longer put up with unfairness, dishonesty, or untruth.
As I woke up, I felt the tightness and soreness in some parts of my body. Then a subtle idea came to me: "Release it to the universe." Do not try to control. Release it and trust.
Just like that, all the tightness and soreness was let go and disappeared.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Does death feel like OBE
050711 Does death feel like OBE?
I was in a very long and lucid dream where I was captured by a terriorist and was taken off site with a few others. On the truck, I was standing outside of the rare of the truck one a piece of footstep, and I thought to myself that if they shoot later to the rare of the truck, I am going to be the very first one got hit, and wished so badly to be among those who were inside the truck. Midway, we were off the truck to be in a store. I was buying an umbrella and was trying it out. The terriorist told me not to bring a stick like that maybe afraid of it being used as a weapon. I kinda mentally assured him that this was not meant to be a weapon. At the check out counter, I told the cashier that I wanted this umbrella. It turned out to be a very stirdy and trendy one.
The terriorist told me to go on the truck again. I thought to myself that there is a chance I am going to die and this is the last moment of me on earth. I thought of a few food items I put in the fridge and feel sad that they will be left there. Me and another friend were called into another store. We were standing there with another woman who was not one of us, but with whom I felt a connection. (Now that I think about her, she was more like there to assist my passing?) The terriorist stood in the front. The woman kinda telepathically let me know that we were going to be shut. Just like that, I saw a gun aiming at us. I got shut point blank.
There was a brief moment of sadness and sorrow, feeling that now I no long belong to this world and was about to depart from all that I had. It was a weird and emotional realization. Howevere, I was over joyed when I started to separate from my physical body. I just floated right out of myself into the air, looking at all the people around including my killer. I was so excited. I flew very fast to the faces of everyone and waved to their faces and no one seemed to see me. I knew that I am now dead. It feels so light and so clear. I have been like this before when I was out of body flying. Every time I am out of body, I am just so free and full of joy. I am totally free now.
I circled the room a few times and shouted in ecastacy. Then I quickly flew away outside. There seemed to be a transition into a different world, because although the surrounding is the same clarity to me, I instinctly knew that this is not the physical world. I flew around and almost bumpt into another soul who seemed to be lost or uncouncious about where he was. I thought to myself, so I am in this in between demonsion now? But I didn't feel like I am lost, since this felt like another OBE that I have been many times when I was living. I purposefully bumpt into that guy who seemed to be lost walking around. My body pass right through him and there is an energy impact to it.
I somehow was drawn to a powerful and vast green ocean. The water is so green and the impact and sound of the wave is so empowering. I just felt like swimming in it. So I flew into the water and stayed near the shore where there were a few others. I just felt eager to be in that energetic impact from the wave. It's so healing and It is where I needed to be. All that sensations and sounds and impact fill my soul with joy and awe.
Is this how death feels like--another OBE??
I was in a very long and lucid dream where I was captured by a terriorist and was taken off site with a few others. On the truck, I was standing outside of the rare of the truck one a piece of footstep, and I thought to myself that if they shoot later to the rare of the truck, I am going to be the very first one got hit, and wished so badly to be among those who were inside the truck. Midway, we were off the truck to be in a store. I was buying an umbrella and was trying it out. The terriorist told me not to bring a stick like that maybe afraid of it being used as a weapon. I kinda mentally assured him that this was not meant to be a weapon. At the check out counter, I told the cashier that I wanted this umbrella. It turned out to be a very stirdy and trendy one.
The terriorist told me to go on the truck again. I thought to myself that there is a chance I am going to die and this is the last moment of me on earth. I thought of a few food items I put in the fridge and feel sad that they will be left there. Me and another friend were called into another store. We were standing there with another woman who was not one of us, but with whom I felt a connection. (Now that I think about her, she was more like there to assist my passing?) The terriorist stood in the front. The woman kinda telepathically let me know that we were going to be shut. Just like that, I saw a gun aiming at us. I got shut point blank.
There was a brief moment of sadness and sorrow, feeling that now I no long belong to this world and was about to depart from all that I had. It was a weird and emotional realization. Howevere, I was over joyed when I started to separate from my physical body. I just floated right out of myself into the air, looking at all the people around including my killer. I was so excited. I flew very fast to the faces of everyone and waved to their faces and no one seemed to see me. I knew that I am now dead. It feels so light and so clear. I have been like this before when I was out of body flying. Every time I am out of body, I am just so free and full of joy. I am totally free now.
I circled the room a few times and shouted in ecastacy. Then I quickly flew away outside. There seemed to be a transition into a different world, because although the surrounding is the same clarity to me, I instinctly knew that this is not the physical world. I flew around and almost bumpt into another soul who seemed to be lost or uncouncious about where he was. I thought to myself, so I am in this in between demonsion now? But I didn't feel like I am lost, since this felt like another OBE that I have been many times when I was living. I purposefully bumpt into that guy who seemed to be lost walking around. My body pass right through him and there is an energy impact to it.
I somehow was drawn to a powerful and vast green ocean. The water is so green and the impact and sound of the wave is so empowering. I just felt like swimming in it. So I flew into the water and stayed near the shore where there were a few others. I just felt eager to be in that energetic impact from the wave. It's so healing and It is where I needed to be. All that sensations and sounds and impact fill my soul with joy and awe.
Is this how death feels like--another OBE??
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