Winter wonderland

(This was a post drafted in January 2011. Time flies. It is now three years later. I am still walking the trails. Here it is--------)

I dreaded when December came, thinking that the nice weather in which I go into nature was about to change.

Four years ago (2009), all I did during the winter was to walk along the main road. At times, it even became too slippery to walk and too freezing cold to be out and about. I did not want to imagine how much worse it must be on the side trails.

I just didn't want the winter to come and disrupt the visit to nature.

December came and then it turned into January. I still go on my walks and love it even more.

Nature turned into a big white wonderland in the dead of winter!! There is something magical about this solitary world of white, the light seems brighter, the senses seem sharper, everything around you seem to give out energy of tranquility and sacred intelligence.

Fewer people to be seen, the ones on the trails are all bundled up. Everyone seems to retreat into their own world of layers of clothings. You become totally self aware walking on the road of silence, even when occasionally another walker passing by.

The year of 2011 has had more snow. I never did leave the lake trails behind, still walking into them every weekend.

Walking in the snow and ice, I had to concentrate totally every step I take. It's just me, the lake, and the icy snowy world. The sense of silence and awareness is overwhelming.

Sitting next to the lake in a snowy morning, moving energy through the body, it is as if the essence of nature running through me, crying for no reason sometimes. This has become intimate and personal experience--me, inner energy, and the nature.

In this vast silence and solitude, miracles and magic are more bound to happen. On the small walk bridge, the mantra "Rebirth in Pure Land" that I had forgotten for 30 years all of a sudden came back to me. Three white tail deer crossed a few yards in front of me like nobody's business a few seconds after I asked for a miracle of some sort. A Canada goose was rescued from the middle of the frozen lake on a Sunday afternoon "sitting dock" froze its bottom half. A hawk grabbed a squirrel from the ground in the middle of the trees and flew off right in front of me.....

In warm weather, a 3 feet long black snake slither right past me while I sit by the water. Fish jumps out of water for nothing. A dozen of birds dip into water from the air repeatedly for quick drinks of water. Three wild turkeys appeared out of nowhere a few yards ahead of me, walking gracefully ......

In this place, being with your own self sometimes get you to weep, for no particular reason.

Tom Murphy hikes alone in Yellowstone all by himself every winter, Richard Proenneke lived in his own cabin in Alaska wilderness by himself for 30 long years---Suddenly I feel like I could be one of these die hard nature lovers. Every time I finish the walk, it is as if I had just come out from another dimension.

I said:"If this is not heaven, what is?"

Nature is home. Nature is temple. Nature is miracle.

Teaching of Seth--the Higher Being

I bought the book "The Seth Material" in 2011, but haven't had time to really read it.
After trying tarot card, and the miraculous turn of event that I reported in the post A Miracle, in 2012 I started to get very interested in channeling. I read through books that I have in related topics, went to a couple of workshops on other topics, pray for highest energy before falling asleep every night. One day, I took out this Seth book that's in the back of my book shelf. I did not put it down for quite a while.
What a blessing to be able to connect with ascended masters this way. There have been quite a few well known channels such as Kyron and others. Somehow the Seth Materials drew me a lot.
The author Jane Roberts connected with Seth, the nonphysical being, spontaneously, and then had 500+ channeling sessions twice weekly. Besides various topics human still can't wrap our brain around, such as dreams, reality, reincarnation, health....Seth also read minds, or give Jane and her husband advices on where to live, and how to arrange their furniture. As the result of the regular channeling, Jane started to develop abilities of her own--OBE, seeing past lives, precognitive knowing...After hundred of sessions with Seth, a future Seth whom Seth called "the Big Brother", from an even higher realm would turn up from time to time in a farther voice.
Everything about this is just fascinating. Even though this is now post 2012--the year of the shift, that is being highly anticipated. The 1960s Seth material struck me like a freight train.
I have had experiences of the connection. I have puzzled about the impact of what happens in dreams on the body once waking up. I have experienced a coming together of past event and present feeling, as if there is no past and present. Everything seem to happen simultaneously. Whenever I catch myself feeling sick or depressed, I found that I don't actually need to believe it, and then it would go away.
Seth even said that dream reality lives on. We have many many other probable realities going on. This physical reality is just one of the many. What goes on with the selves in other layers affect the I in the physical reality, and vice versa. We can even change past events by the present actions.
That says to me that I need to take this layer of reality seriously just like I would like to know about other layers.
A lot of times I would ponder about what to do with all these divine moments. They always occur when no one is around. When I do try to share them with others, I always end up giving up trying because I am unable to put them to words to give the whole picture and others were at a loss what I am trying to say.
What should I do with all these moments? I tried my best to share some in this blog, but this really is just a peek or a tip of the iceburg.
Praying for highest energy and pray for help to get to the next level have helped me a lot. I have had dreams almost every night where I am around that big temple. I know that I am making progress. I am sure that ascended masters are around and the help come through my intuition.
A couple of weeks later, all of a sudden I was told to be courageous and brave. I need to step out of my comfort zone, so that I can encounter more and experience more.

Awakening--Returning to the original state

I was going through a huge stress about something that my whole body tense up and ache all night long. The despair was almost equal to the destruction of this life.

I have had this type of dooming worry before, the sense that all will turn against my advantage, and that all grace, hope, diginity will be rubbed from me. The severity and intensity depends on what might be about to happen.

At such moment of high worry, it feels like every fiber in my body was dreading, refusing, and simply do not want to go forward. It felt like every little bit of me was against my own existence. How wonderful if I was not I. How wonderful if I simply did not exist.

The biggest example of this was bearing the whole burden of my story of losing my ex-boyfriend.

This time, although it lasted just about one night and one day, the intensity was such that by the time the issue was seemingly resolved, that familiar substantial feeling re-appeared in my solar plexis. as if something in me gather and congregate again.

After the experience of original state comes back, I started to sit down and organize and clean up my messy desk. I picked up, looked at, and examine every single item with care and love and tenderness, as if I can be with them and do this forever. Time and space were not important or relevant.

I went home to make something to eat. Normally I ate in front of the TV. But this time, I brought my food and sat down in front of my bedroom window to eat my dinner slowly, which I haven't done for years. This bedroom window was where I sat for hours every night during the height of my awakening. It just felt right. I just wanted to sit there.

When I noticed that this old familiar experience has just returned, it was a surprise. Why am I having this familiar experience? What did I do? Am I having an awakening in a smaller scale?

Before my first awakening, I had had big stress happened to me too, When it is resolved, it was just a relief and I move on to the next thing. After the awakening, there has been perhaps only one or two huge stress that could defy who I am, or cause me to lose everything. When I slowly crawl out of the deep hole, I experienced similar peak experience in a smaller scale, 10 times less intense, and 10 times less distraction than my first awakening.

For me, because I have worked through most of my issues and attachment, I am able to notice and recognize the original state very quickly, anytime after a major stressful event.

What happened was that we have attached our self identity to an external target.

When we are confronted with the loss of this external target, it is like we are losing our self-identity. We felt the threat in every fiber of own body and being.

When the threat goes away, whether we give the target up with great pain and hence no longer experiencing it as a threat, or by regaining the target with ecstasy, a peak experience is resulted.

If it turns out that we do not actually lose the target, the peak experience is distracted by the target. We are conditioned to believe that the target equal to peak experience. All the wonderful body sensation, emotional attachment overwhelms the deep sense of inner energy. All we feel is the surface. When one day we forever lose that target, we are left with the craving of the target, the body sensation, and the emotional attachment that we can't let go.

First the suffering come as losing something we really want, disbelief, denial, anger, and when we decide to surrender and accept, the suffering comes as peeling off the layer and layer of attachment on the physical, emotional, intellectual, and spiritual level.

After all are processed and die down, we can then feel and sense that deep inner peace and our original state. This is where surrendering and acceptance lead to, after a great suffering and an extremely difficult process. 

This is a time of total surrender, recognition, back to self, loss of pain/pressure/physical sensation, regain of inner awareness, return to our original state. At such time, I am in total connection with inner energy, the total focus and freedom, with no suffering and no distraction.

I have noticed this a few times. Whenever stress goes away, the state of deep peace and tranquility return right back to that deep peace and tranquility.

I can now see the mechanism of awakening. I have learned this pathway by noticing and discovering this familiar state of being. The pain is not any less each time I have to depart from something important to me. However, I am able to always trace back and return to this deep peace and tranquility of that original state.

Awakening is free from suffering. The less we rely on something else, the closer we are to total freedom.

Horrors in the "Solitary Nation" (on PBS)

"Solitary Nation" on PBS show Frontline is a documentation of inmates who are placed solitary confinement due to disruption inside the prison.
  The ones subjected to this punishment are originally put in there for a few months. Because of the inhumane conditions and unbearable rage, anger, screams, shouts, cursing of the inmates in that area, each of them quickly subcum to even more destructive behaviors. The punishment is then even longer time in it.
  According to the film, the concept of putting inmates into solitary confinement started in the 1800s. It stopped for a while but then re-started again in 1960s (if I remember correctly).
  During solitude, supposedly it is easier to process one's issues, emotions, thoughts, and get to the real self inside. It's not unheard of that inmates find God while in the prison and totally turn themselves around. However, if we remain our reactive ego and if the place is full of disruptions and violence, such process will not be possible, and one ends up becoming even more reactive from the hurt in the process, and from the built up emotions that gets more and more intense once in there. It's then unbearable both from the inside and on the outside.
  It is horrifying to see the conditions the inmates go through. The small rooms line up along the hallway and inmates can hear or see through the small glass window on the door and the gap under the door. They scream, bang/shake the door violently, curse at the system, or at each other, push feces and urine out to the hallway, , . Each day, they get one hour to come out to walk in an individual cage for exercise.
  The most horrifying scene is when a certain inmate is found mutilating himself in protest or despair, which is usually the last resort they turn to. A team of prison guards go in to bring out the bloody, pale, half dying inmate out for medical attention. It is horrifying to see the small cubical room overfloated with blood like a murder scene. The custodian is there to wipe off the place splashed with blood and sweep the flooded blood down the drain like sweeping flooded water.  
  It is just so sad and horrifying to see a vibrant, alive human being reduced to that screaming, half dying, bloody mess after just a few short weeks.
  Is this really the only way to try to turn a human being around? Is this even working at all?
  One of the projects the prison tries on one of the most severely dangerous inmates to himself is to pull him out in a separative area where he receives one on one counseling with a therapist a few times a week. after a few times, he started to open up and is able to share more and finally was able to be granted a phone call with his 2 year old daughter. This guy who was the most violent, disruptive, and feared turned into this caring, smiling, and joyful dad beaming with genuine love for another human being. He was then moved to a general area during part of the day where he was free to talk to inmates who are there free like he is. They play chess, eat on the table, and chat among themselves like in the high school cafeteria. These normal behaviors suddenly look so moving when it is from the guy who went through those violent horrors.
  Another guy featured in the solitary confinement was sent there just a few days when the show started. He looked at the camera and said that he feels that 4 months would go by fast and he should be ok. As time went by, he got more and more violent. He started to scream, shout, shake the door, curse at other inmates and guards. In just 2 months his time there was prolonged by 2 months longer. He became even more violent. His youthful, handsome face turned into this angry, mean, dry, desperate look. Pretty soon, he started to push urine and feces out into the hallway and mutilate himself. Toward the end of the show, it was the scene of him being taken out by the guards and doctors from the pool of flooded blood in his room. After treatment, he was put back into the solitary confinement for even longer time.
  The guy who had a great turn around had to go back to the solitary confinement after the project ended. He became violent again and his time was prolonged as well.
  Our planet is really not the easiest place for existence. We are born with limited capacity in our physical body, and then there are all kinds of circumstances in this human world we are facing with our own device. We are all loving and protective to our young children. We provide, teach, love, nurture, and care for them because they are young and innocent. The day they turn 18 years old, all of a sudden we require everyone to make good decision and be responsible for themselves. If they ever break the law, we mostly throw people into jail for them to learn their lesson. However, those who commit most severe crime often are the ones need the most help. Separation and punishment only push them deeper into despair and confusion. We put them in there to face their own music, to hopefully remove the danger and harm to other human beings.
  For most people, this system probably works fine, but for those who need help the most, is there something else we could do?
  I mostly ask for divine beings to help all of us. May all living beings have peace, joy, love, light, health, safety, and fulfillment. Shine your loving light on everyone of us on this planet and everywhere. Thy will be done. Thy will be done.

Forgiving the betrayal

  

  A friend of mine recently suffered a loss of relationship with her boyfriend, who she thought to be her soulmate. It came as a total surprise to her. She was head over heel in love. Even when a psychic told her that he will leave her, she took it as a sign that the psychic is not a great one, unable to see the deep soulmate connection they had. My friend has thought that her boyfriend is even more spiritually advanced than she is.

I did not sense great spiritual energy from that guy. I did not tell my friend, knowing that she would not have believed it anyway.

  The guy simply moved and relocated to another part of the country, without telling her. She had to find that out from social media. She thought they were moving in together soon, as the guy had moved some of his things into her place.

  Naturally I will need to say something to help her recover from this sad development, which brings me back to 11 years ago when the same thing happened to me. My boyfriend at the time simply moved in with the other girl, when I was going to bring him some items as he was moving into a new house.

I was hurt so badly that the pain led me to search my soul to the core. Here is the link to the post:

Waking up from my own story

The Turning Point

  I remember that the huge turning point is the realization that it really is not his fault. It is only from my point of view that he is at fault. Actually he is entitled to his own free will and his choice. Yes, he should not hurt anyone with that type of action—betraying me whom he knows would be hurt badly if he makes that choice of action. But everyone is free to make his/her choice and then takes the consequence of the action.

    The whole five year of this relationship was full of struggles and challenges. It was great at times but hellish at other times. I tried and tried, thinking that it would get better if I would try a little more. It's these activities on each level of mind, emotion, and soul that entangle every inch of my being into the mess. The loss of the relationship with him would be my worst nightmare that I would not know what to do or how to live with.

  Finally, the day came when the nightmare became reality. 

  While collapsed on the floor crying for days in disbelief and agony, it finally occurred to me that it is not his fault, and that he really is entitled to his own choice and his free will. Yes, it's so sad that he didn't pick me, but I have tried everything and done everything I can. At that point, that is the outcome and I can cry in every fiber of my being over that loss, or I can let it go and look toward the whole new world of freedom. 

   Even though the negativity still stuck to me like a bad disease, the brief thought/imagination of forgiveness started to feel liberating and healing. The willingness to dig deep to find it in me to forgive is the turning point.   

Then it is the months long slow and painful process of peeling off the layer and layer of attachment and entanglement. The key is to be persistent and never look back. In the process of complete peeling off and release, many other unrelated junks also go into the drain.  

  However, it was very scary to face the reality by myself. I was so busy dealing with him that I never deal with a reality without him in it. The loneliness, fear and anxiety , plus the anger, shame, sadness, regrets, and despair are simply overwhelming. I remember that my body ached and my heart was bleeding. Every inch of my being is full of pain and suffering, until the great transformation after period of very intense and deep meditation and spiritual transformation. 

     It is 11 years later, and it feels like a different lifetime. I become totally independent and clear. The spiritual practices and maturity enable me to be balanced, self sufficient, responsible for my own actions, and see the world with a deep understanding and realization. This compassionate perception of seeing everyone just like myself, knowing where they are from, really is the key to total liberation and freedom--free of negativity, free of karma, free of drama, and free of suffering.

  

Ask for And Expect Miracles

  Travelling, spending time in nature on weekends, cooking out on camp fire, staying in a cabin, trying to work out some issues at work and with friends…This sums up the activities lately and for the last two months, besides working.  This is after a welcomed conclusion of quite a few spiritual workshops I attended since last year, acquiring new skills for me, but taking time away from me going into nature.

  Three, four years ago, I became curious about the bar scene and was hoping to have friends to go with me after work. (For me this was a cultural learning, a non typical in my own culture.) I had an interesting precognitive dream prior to it becoming a reality, going out chatting after a long week. ( In the dream someone tried to steal my mystical box from me while at the bar when I was with 2 friends. It ended up being a chasing frenzy with a few people chasing me flying around in the sky. The dream ended with me stopping at a road where there is no one around.) Flying Like It's Natural

  The going out with friends has turned out for me to learn the socialization that in certain aspect was new to me, and also how others really view spirituality.

  Whenever I run into a wall of misunderstanding, ridicule, distrust, unintended mistake, and disrespect, it is sad and feels lonely, as if you are an odd duck that does not fit anywhere. I learn that these can only be dealt with compassion. It leads me deeper into my inner self, where everything is.

  In the meantime, the spiritual growth for me has been more and more sense of connection with guides and angels. I talk to them whenever I get a chance. Last week I had my aura photo taken after a year. This time around, I have violet aura all around me. Last year, I had white aura as my primary color at the time.

  I found that the more things I hope for and pray for sincerely, the more things become reality. I simply say it and then trust that it is true, putting no more mind activities into it

1.  One night I could not fall asleep and felt my body tense all over. After about half an hour tossing and turning, I just could not stand it anymore. I talked firmly to my angels to please send unconditional love into my body right now. Right away, every part of my body and organ respond to it on command, as if a flow of healing energy has come in and flooded through my body. Instantly I changed from being stressed to soften into sobbing tears. I instantly felt healed and relieved and started to relaxed into sleep. It felt just like a miracle!

2.       “The Psychic Pathway” came to my mind all of a sudden, two years after I bought this book. I decided that I would read it over the weekend coming up. I started reading it and could not believe what I was reading.

  Three things happened to me right before reading them  in "The Psychic Pathway", things I would not think I find in a book on psychic development

 Asking for and expecting miracles---
  Last week, because of some issues that are out of my control, I asked Kwan Yin and St Michael for help. I have thought of what I could do and what might help. I did one or two things that have helped. For the rest of things that I probably could do, the outcome could go either way. I lost sleep and I could feel my body got really tense due to the stress. After much struggle, I simply said “I am giving this to Kwan Yin and St. Michael. They are going to do this for me. This needs to be done at the magical and miracle level.“ Things continue to work well with some new twists and turns.

  I did the same thing about a situation with a friend. I said to St Michael that I really don’t know how to do this. I am giving this to you St. Michael. I said it on the previous night before falling asleep. I said that during the meditation the next morning, and I said it again when I was in the nature. I felt very good and said it again when reaching the next beach. Later I found out that that friend has just emailed me back as a friendly gesture when I was at the beach, whereas the previous day, she was all hostile and distant.
  Instantly I felt the calm and confirmation that there is the divine intervention at work. I was speechless and almost couldn’t believe how the magic and miracle work.

Getting organized---

  I couldn’t sleep two nights ago and kept thinking about this lifelong dream of mine--- camping out in the wild and getting a new place where I can do gardening in the nature and maybe have some animals on the farm for a simple life. If I don’t try these this lifetime, I am sure I will have to come back to fulfill my dream in my next lifetime. 

  It occurred to me that I can start by re-arranging my place to make it simpler. The most I was thinking about was to make the bedroom a meditation room where I would move the bed out and have the whole room empty, with only maybe a shrine and a reading table. I also wanted to make the dining table smaller to make the rest of the dining area larger. On Saturday, I spent quite a bit of time cleaning out the pile of paper, and got rid of some unnecessary items.

Avoid asking those who are not spiritually sound for advices—

  Lately many times I have felt that I might as well talk to myself. The more I talk to some people, the more I feel it is a wall. It simply is not time for some people to communicate truthfully. And it is ok. The time will come for everyone at some point.

  I did specifically all three things and then right away read them in the book unexpectively, as if receiving a confirmation from my angels. Things have been working out for me starting at the miracle level. Everything works out and comes together like magic.

Divination

  It has been special pilgrimage for me to visit temples to worship and receive divination while visiting my family in Taiwan.
  On my trip back this year in July, I visited Temple of Divine Mother, and Temple of Kwan Yin.
  I love to be among the sea of people praying, worshiping, and offering incenses, fruits, or flowers to the Gods, some standing, others kneeing, and still others bowing down on the ground. Everyone is talking to the Gods. The ascending trails of fragrant incense, the sight of devotion of people around, the golden statue of Gods, the magnificent shrine, all emanates divine energy and glory that take you to a different realm and space.
  The most special part is talking to Gods to ask for divination. The messages I received last year were classified "High-High" and "High-Good"
  I wonder if I would receive messages as good as last year.
  After offering the incense, I asked for permission to receive divination. Once getting the go ahead, I draw a stick and ask again whether this is the message in regard to my question or prayer.
  While talking to Kwan Yin, I felt the strong connection and the vibrations throughout my body. It was so familiar, so direct, and so intimate. After getting the stick, I went to the message chest to find the slip matching the number.
  I was so shocked when seeing the message. It is a message that is classified as "High-High" again, the same like the one I received a year ago., as if Kwan Yin is so happy to see me back home and I can almost see the bright smile in her glow of divine light.
  The message from the Divine Mother didn't have a classification, but it is also as good as can be.
  This is exactly the same way as the messages I received from 2 temples last year.
  All of these messages basically say that everything will be the best outcome. The metaphor used are "Coming home with boat load of treasure", "A career full of promoting connections", "Moon light shinning brightly so why the unnecessary doubts",  "Feeling of bottom replaced by sudden shift of smooth sail and beautiful autumn scenery".
  How can anyone be consistently receiving such wonderful divinations two years in the row in 4 temples? In each temple, the 100 sticks for divination have ranks of classifications from "High-High" to "Low-Low", if they have classifications at all.

Horseback Riding

  Animals have big effect on me. I could look at them and am completely marveled by the beautiful and intelligent creation that is from God.
  Last year I joined a 3 hour tour to go looking for moose sighting in the wild. Another day I went to wolf hollow to see the wolf in captivity. I was beyond myself both times. Something deep inside of me was deeply touched, pure, simple and direct. I kept saying silently to the animals "Hi, how are you? Hi, why are you so beautiful?? Hi, You are just so magnificent. Hi, so nice to meet you. It is such a pleasure and honor....."
  Then I was looking to try horseback riding. After searching for a year and waiting for the right time and right planning, I finally did it. The special experience still affects me a month later. The impact is as strong as being in the wonderful view and energy of Sedona.
  The goals for the 3 day trip to Vermont were hiking, farmers market, and horseback riding.
   I just couldn,t wait to meet the horses.
   Finally I arrived at Mountain View Ranch. They walked the horses out to get them ready before the ride.

 
My horse for the hour is "Lady", a horse in her teen year. When the riding started, it is a mixed feeling of exhilaration and a little apprehension. I was beyond thrilled to be riding this magnificent horse. What a humbling experience. In order to make the riding work, "Lady" and I need to do this together. It, s not super comfortable in the beginning. After my body gets used to the rhythm, the apprehension went away.
  My 7 year old tabby cat wants nothing more than a full belly, a place for shelter, and just being a simple cat. He can be entertained and fascinated by the birds outside for hours. Easily scared and stunned, he goes crawling slowly into under the bed when a little thunders start , trying to make himself as inducible as possible. He is contend and sweet as long as he is fed and well .  I realized how observant and alert he is toward anything around him. Whatever i do, if i turn around, i will be sure he is watching. I started to be very gentle and considerate about what i do around animals, and then also people too.
  All animals are as magnificent and simple as my cat and "Lady". The thought of animals being attacked or eaten alive by a pack of wolves, or other predators just really saddens me. They are consumed bite by bite. They die little by little. The horror and suffering are totally real.
     Should it be seen as sacred when your body is being eaten as food to sustain or nourish other lives? Should you feel sacred when your body is being eaten alive?
  Different populations of animals naturally keep each other's number balanced, but it's through one way and one way only--food chain. Every animal has a place in the food chain somewhere and all animals can be food for other animals.
  The reality is that there are cruelty and suffering every day. That's the reality of this 3rd dimension. Or maybe there will come a day when animals no longer consume another animal?
  What about plants? They have signs of intelligence too.
  Our little head just can't figure out what the large design of things is and the reasons behind it.
  Let's raise the vibration of this space so that maybe this food chain dilemma will somehow resolved.

Encountering a spirit

  This experience was half sleep and half awake state one night last month. I saw a spirit in my living room. She dressed in a very elegant golden gown and was emanating bright white light. My cat and I were on this end of the living room, where I have been sleeping on the couch. She looked toward us for a while and continued on to go through the wall to my neighbor.
  Even though she seems to be a spirit with light, somehow both my cat and I were a bit nervous. I looked directly back to her, even trying to see if i might be able to talk to her. But then she walked into the wall.
  The thought of her going to another household made me nervous, wondering if people would see her and get scared. Somehow I became aware to the fact that she has been around all the time in this building. I was a bit surprised.

Responsive astral plane

  Last night I went back to the place where it's in the back of a mountain valley. I have been in this places many times before in recurrent dreams and this time around I wanted to check if any changes in the place. Besides the main learning room in the front, a few other rooms are connected to it. I can walk around in all rooms. It looked like close to dusk as I could not see very well. A night guard came to let me know it's closing time and I could not linger longer.
  There was the familiarity while walking around. I was standing in one room trying to stay longer when someone came in, and I said sorry and make myself ready to leave the room, purposefully making some sound and movement so that I did not spook her in the dark.
  I went to another room and a group of college aged guys and girls were still hanging out there. Another room with sofa type of seating is empty and I felt that this room can be put to good use and fit whatever I want to do.
  Then it's time for me to go home. It is already dark outside and I was thinking it's going to be a far journey. All of a sudden, I felt like I could levitate and fly. Just by the thought of it, a gust of wind came over and then I went airborn. It felt like I was on a roller coaster, going up and down. The speed is controlled by how fast I want it to be and the amount of energy seemingly around me and inside of me. I was counting 1,2,3.... and with each number I know it's 1 mile. My lips could not count fast enough as I counted to more than 50 in jut a few seconds. I was moving so fast while travelling.
  I arrived at someone's back yard where the trees and plants are unique looking and are all alive. I went into the plants and trees and they embrace me back like they are animals or living things. A few cute looking small creatures came out from the ground and bushes. One of them bit me and I woke up.

Another Precognitive Dream

  A while ago, I dreamed that I was sleeping in a room when my deceased father came next to my bed. I saw 2 very tall entities next to him. When I get up, he asked me for help. He said it's so and so right? I said I saw 2 very tall beings. He wants me to help him.
  Then I dreamed that a colleague came to my center with a big smile with many other people. She said they are routine reviewers. They started to look around, more like a promoting visit than a review.
  I was talking to the colleague. She then went outside and was on a bike going somewhere. I thought to myself what an energetic woman. No one would think how tough she is. But all of a sudden, she fell from the bike in the rain. I went out quickly to help her.
  It was odd that she simply just fell from the bike in the middle of the empty street.
  This dream was a while ago, and a visit from a group of people to my center did happen later last year. Early this year, this colleague suddenly became ill. Lately she has not been well and was out of work for a while.

All beings on the petal

  Yesterday during doing yoga, another vision came in my mind, s eye--many people and living beings are on the petal where I found myself (See the last post).  
  It is such a joy to see such a sight. It feels so great and it is how it is supposed to be!
  May all beings have the love and light of Kwan Yin. May all beings realize the love and light in themselves!

Kwan Yin, s Associate

Kwan Yin, s Associate
  Sedona Arizona, such a magical place. When the majestic red and orange oddly shaped rocky mountains first met the eyes, I almost couldn, t believe what I was seeing. It was like witnessing a heavenly structure hanging from the sky. Just like that, I entered into this kindom of magical valley where a few energy vortexes swirl.
  I am here in Dr. Gene Ang, s retreat where we activated energy, attempted UFO contact, meditated in the vortexes, attempted spoon bending, and learned about biogeometry to create divine energy wherever we want in our daily life, outside of sacred sites such as the vortextes.
  What struck me the most was again the reconfirming of how the path has been opening up and evolving. Every time I intuitively do a new technique, a confirmation will come from either a great teacher or from a great writing.
  This time was when Gene was talking about asking to raise your energy to merge and become the Buddha or Saint, then they will inspire you.
  This is exactly what I have been doing for the past year or so. One day while walking in the woods, a vision suddenly came to me, in which I am one of Kwan Yin, s Associates. I am one of the few standin on the lotus petals next to Kwan Yin in the ball of radiant bright white light, floating and ascending...I know this is something significant and is a message from Kwan Yin.
  My life has been in an upward movement for a while now. Things just get so smooth and big opportunites keep coming---presenting to university and community both in the forum and on the webcast, being interviewed on community TV, invited a guest speaker at a university class, invited to be co-chair of a university/community project, doing a closing remark for a symposium, presented an award for a college, mayor attending my event.....all these boosted me up and super charge my confidence, confirming the vision and trust to be someone who stands on a petal.
  This leads me to believe  that I can be anyone I want to be. I am the creator of my own reality and path, guided by Kwan Yin and other higher beings.
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Buddha Boy--Ram Bahadur Bomjon

Six years in meditation, without eating or drinking

Buddha boy explained that he was attending a funeral of a friend when he suddenly remembered how he meditated in a previous lifetime. He went into meditation and continued on without eating or drinking for 6 years.

Buddha boy's words

Buddha boy's biography

Discovery Channel Documentary

Lower self connection-before connecting with higher self

 "You need to connect with you lower self, before you can connect with you higher self."

  This is what Drunvalo Melchizedek learned from Hawaiian kahunas people. He was trying to connect with higher self and asked his angels for guidance. An kahunas aboriginal native showed up at his workshops and was asked by Drunval to teach (Aboriginal people or others often coming from everywhere to his workshops to deliver messages). The teaching was that we need to connect with lower self before we can connect with higher self, which Drunvalo finally realized why the technique of contacting higher self he himself has been teaching was not easy for many people. Drunvalo shared in his book "Ancient flower of life" and also his video.
  Lower self is our inner child, the part where everything is a wonder around us. We perceive everything as if receiving them for the first time. We are totally open, enchanted, and child like, no matter what comes our way.
  Drunvalo said that we need to be able to connect with the part of us that is genuine and innocent, and when mother earth feel we are ready, we will be able to connect with our higher self, which is the all knowing, God like, heaven father nature.
  As adults, it, s almost not easy to know how to be child like. But there are ways and we can all relate to it. The 2 things he mentioned are going into nature and travelling to different places.
  This is so true. After meditating for 5, 6 years, and 1 year of yoga, I just couldn, t resist the urge of going into nature, even though the biggest concern is the fear of walking in the woods.
  I realized that is what i have been doing for the past 4 years--spending time in the nature every chance i get.
  The two day retreat on the weekend started in late November or early December 2009. Yoga seemed to set me free even further. I felt compelled to go into nature. In nature, surrounded by trees, earth, air, light, sounds of animal, and the serenity, we find that there us a child within us who is always contented, happy, curious, playful, and aware.

  The first few times were terrifying to be walking by myself, even though there are always other walkers depending on the weather. Winter also came quickly in December. I walked on the main trails for the whole winter. When spring came, I started to explore some secondary trails and absolutely love it.

  In March, I met the geese family and visited them every chance I got. I would watch them and then sat by the lake to meditate. It was a spiritual experience. I went to the lake rain or shine. Plenty of times, there was no one by the lake, but me and the geese, when it was groomy rainy days. I hunkered down in my umbrella sitting by the lake. Those are the special moments.

  I would walk anywhere and imagine what it's like to live out here. I just want to be with the tree and to be in the nature. I want to eat the plants that surrounds me and take them inside of me. I go to grocery store to look for them. I love all kinds of fruit and vegetable. By October, I bought a juicer and started to juice every morning. It was just so rejuvenizing and healing.

  When winter arrived again, I was sad that the good time is about to end for a while. When snow turned the whole place into a winter wonderland, I put on snow shoe and continue to walk into the upper lake into the lower lake, until when the snow is too deep to walk in any way.

  Winter is totally a different world. With fewer people around, the whole place is quiet, tranquil, serene, and magical. The white snow, the beaming sun, the empty branches, trees covered with ice sculptures...the whole place feel almost like a holly temple which fill you with awe and joy. It really transforms you, humble you, and as a result, you feel that there is not much more to say. Just experience it. Just take this in. Just come more often. Just come any chance you get.

  Near the middle of January, I was only able to stay on the main road. The snow, the sun, and sometimes the cloudiness turn the whole place into a surreal place. I almost feel like I am finally in the real wild. I feel like I finally become one with nature

  To be self sufficient, have the nature all to myself, is what I really want to experience. 

  One part of my nature walk is sitting by the water and meditate and do energy work.

  I would often weep while sitting by the lake meditating or when I walk. Later on, I found that the weeping usually happen when I go into a further relaxing state and the body react with a almost appreciative and ecstatic manner. Such a transition is unknown to me and hence surprise even within different part of the body and soul, as if they just met for the first time.

  When spring come again, I was sad that the serene temple would once again change into another world
  Nature is the temple where we remember and go back to our home inside of ourselves. From there, we get to really receive the messages from our higher home.

An Initiation?

1/8/14   An Initiation?

  In the dream, I came to a room full of a group of people. They are here to witness something. I was ushered into the middle of the room. There stood a tall wide foreheaded man. A voice inside me said that he is a powerful alien. He seemed to be about to pass over. There is bright strong energy emanating from around him.
  I was brought to stand in front of him, surrounded by everyone. I then just let go of both of my legs and let my both bended legs standing on the tip of my toes. I stood like that and was totally without using any strength, kinda like in a lotus position standing up half way. Not sure what the purpose was , but it felt magical, powerful, and ritualistic. I felt like this is what i am supposed to do and was not thinking at all. People around me sang or chanted and were amazed. I was amazed too. The man was there either helping or was witnessing as well.
I felt like I am at least also powerful and was there to be seen as well.
It felt almost like an initiation of some sort???

Precognitive Dream Leading the Path

   It was Thanksgiving in 2012. I prayed very sincerely before falling asleep for highest vibration coming through. Then I had a very vivid dream. Here is the entry

A Class in a White Stone Building

  A few months later, the Shamanic Journeying program started in March 2013. I found the teacher and her place to be familiar from the dream.
  Leontine is confident, tall, straightforward, one of the best for what she does. Her house is even more amazingly familiar from the dream. It's all white, with a lot of flower patterns in some part. She also has a dog. Her cat reached up to the table and try to eat the flower. The chairs are in a circle. The teacher was teaching me some type of art lesson in the dream. In the real session, it also involves making costumes, mask, power items. The teaching is all sacred, ancient, time tested, and universal. In the dream, it felt as though the material were a bit old but were all classics. There was also something about paying with checks.....
  There was also opportunity to be filmed by BBC TV at one time too.
  So many things were in the dream, with a little variation.
 The Apprenticeship program is going on to year two in March.
  It has been a great growing and expanding experience. The meeting is one Saturday each month, each time starting with praying to the directions, inner diamond light meditation, and then journeys to other realms to meet higher beings to ask for guidance. We learned a wide range of shamanic practices--meeting our spirit guides and power animal, dismemberment, retrieval, dream work, psycho pump, merging, soul retrieval....It did not come natural and took a bit of getting used to. But the structure of the day, the sharing, the support, the practice, and even the environment all make it a wonderful experience. At the end of the day, I feel like gone through a series of healing and am energized and uplifted.
  It was about the 3rd session when I learned the merging technique, that's when all of a sudden I started to want to do it every day. I started to merge with Kwan Yin'd love and light, which opened up all new levels of awareness and expansion.
  The more into the program, the more the dream I had was verified.
  This has turned out to be a growing experience for me, especially the merging and communicating with Kwan Yin and higher beings. The path feels more and more solid and certain. It has now leading me to work further with divine light and vibration.
  One side note is that before I signed up for the program, the teacher emailed me and said that her spirit guide told her it would be good for me to be in apprenticesip program, as opposed to another series. She said she never had her guide telling her about any other potential students.