Flying into a beautiful tree

121511 Flying into a beautiful tree

I was dreaming that aliens came in the sky. Everyone was out of places to hide and did not know where to go. Many details were lost, but I remember I was in a room with a few others when the flying device of those aliens attached itself to the top of the room and started scanning with red light beaming. I somehow knew that they were recording what they saw.

For some reason, I was not too concerned and knew that I had secret power with me. At one point, I was out in the open. When I got a chance and had to escape, I consciously took off into the sky with my back facing the ground in a 45 degree angle. I felt so light and so easy and flew with full speed and energy, feeling totally free and powerful. After a while, I flew into a big tree with good view where I could see what's going on around and underneath me. This tree was full of energy, had big lush green leaves with smooth and shiny branches that extended beautifully. I felt very good in the tree. I looked up and was thinking to go higher up the tree where another portion of the branches looked within reach.

Then I was taking a few people to a recurrent market where I visit in my dream from time to time. This is a place where I felt very familiar and warm. I was wearing a elaborate robe which is a bit large for me. I looked at the mirror to make sure it fits. I took these people to have noodles for lunch. They all chip in.

111811 Sucked into a white tube

111811 Sucked into a white tube

I was dreaming until I came around my grandma's house. My awareness was that I was standing facing the front gate in the yard taking pictures with a few of my relatives (ancestors, although I didn't see their faces, I knew that they are ancestors). Then all of a sudden, my gaze into outside of the gate made my eyes fixated. Almost at the same time, I started to feel being sucked away from where I stood by a force. I was like what was going on. The force just completely overcome me and I became a swoosh and away I went.

I knew I was in altered state of consciousness but I kept thinking what this force could be. I simply went with it and didn't resist.

Now I felt that I was in this tube moving away. It's all white around me. I tried to see what is around me. I said "Awareness now" "Vision now", but I was still in the tube.

Then my awareness changed. I was in a room with three other people talking about something. A lamp caught on fire and we had to run out of the room.

In the last part, I was in this empty round hall with stone pillars around. I went through a narrow pathway to a desk where I would face the center of the hall studying something. I felt very familiar with this setting as if this is the place where I would stay away and focus and study, forever already.

As I woke up, I felt refreshed and healed all over. It is as if some blockage in me has been cleared. It never fails to amaze me every time this type of healing and clearing happens.

Coworker at a parlor

110111 Coworker at a parlor

I was walking in a school setting toward three other colleagues standing in the hallway near a stair. I didn't really see who they are, only sensing that they are like coworkers. I walked up to them to start a conversation. It is all very real and I almost just continued on with the dream. But all of a sudden, I wondered to myself: maybe I can try to fly and see what happen. Again I even thought: What a crazy idea. But I bravely just jumped up and was surprised that I was right again. Wow I can't believe how real the dream feels like reality.

After the jump, I continued going up into the air. The three other people seem to froze up and just not moving anymore. I left them behind and flew away.

I arrived at a series of parlors. I went in and out some of them to see what were in there. I don't remember what I saw. But then I was on my way to somewhere. I saw someone from work outside of the parlor looking around. She had a dress on. I said hi to her. She said she is going to eat lunch by herself. I asked her one more thing and she started to cry. She said people at work is having meeting about her. She is very sad. I told her that this is all a learning lesson. At least now she knows. This is just a matter of whether this is a match or not. I was surprised the tough woman as she is could broke down like that and how fast things played out. I am glad I was able to console her.

I wonder if she does know that people are not happy about her.

Recurrent Learning Hall

101711 Recurrent Learning Hall

I was in the dream among a group of people. As the conversation went on, all of a sudden, I suspected that this was a dream and that I probably could take off into the air. It felt strange though,because if this was not a dream,I could certainly make a fool of myself among all these people. So I just jumped up into the air and was so glad I was right. I was able to keep going up. I left the people behind and flew out.

I kept on going in the air along a railway and scanning the houses beneath. I wondered why I was following the railway, maybe so that this is something familiar? Next thing I knew, I arrived at a learning place where I have been in recurrent dreams. This is like a learning hall, but in the back of the hall, there is a place for me to either tutor or mentor the students there. I felt particularly familiar with the rare portion. From the rare portion, we can enter the learning hall, and then also to the front yard which is a bit hilly.

I came to the lunch room and lunch is fresh salad and vegetables, along with just a few Chinese dumplings, designed by the nutritionist from my work. I praised what a healthy lunch and we can even have dumplings.

Then I found a room in the back where I can catch some sleep there as the class ends. My cat was making some noise in the room and woke me up.

In this place, sometimes it became many more rooms and sometimes the whole place would beccome very tall, very grand, and there would be filled with many decorations that enhance the whole atmosphere. I need to find those journal entries or tape recordings to remember the details.

Act or forever in fear

I just saw a Frontline featuring report on PBS about a contemporary artist who has been drawing attention and followers from all over the globe. His name is Ai Weiwei

While watching him, I was totally captivated and moved by this fearless and selfless individual, almost like watching the big belly Buddha, with the kind of lightheartedness, depth and immenseness that just speak directly to our core. Many ordinary people in China and in the world also feel that he speaks out for them. But he is more than just speaking out. The fearless and selfless spirit of him is something else.

"There is just no slightest fear in him anywhere. He just has this ultimate freedom to do whatever he wants." "He very truthfully conveys his simple and sincere reaction to political and social phenomonans in his artwork." "He exposes and confronts the corruptions and problems in China." "Usually Chinese people are subtle in their showing of disagreement or defiance. He is different. He scolds the government, using the most aggressive words and act." "He would even put his own life on the line."

He has this unique approach of taking a camera to document his surroundings, many are just very simple slice of a moment in time, such as a face, two items side by side together, his cat sitting on the ground....When video taping devices are placed around his house, or when he was followed, confronted, filmed,photoed..he simply take out his smartphone, camera, or video recorder to film them right back and broadcast it in real time on the internet.

People all over are worried about him. Then bad things started to happen. He has been house arrested, beaten, stopped when trying to go out of the country, and his house and studio have been demolished. The demolition of his place was documented by himself and is going to be another large scale of artwork.

Many compare him to Andy Warhol but better. I would equate this way of acting with the truth, the freedom, the fearless, and the selfless. This is the way of nothingness and everything else.

And I really want to know how he can act so strongly and fearlessly.

I remembered how hard it was to step into a new existence without my ex. I still remembered how I did it. It was scary. Every day and every moment, you try to put one foot in front of the other, but do not believe your foot is worth a movement, or do not feel you have any strength left to move your foot, or do not believe next step would be any better, or you are even consumed by the negative doom that all there is is hell,what foot?....Trying to give up the lifeline would mean confronting the same thing------the unknown, the fear, the weakness of moving those feet, the doom.

Security is inside, freedom is outside, and fear stands in between.

I still haven't had to confront with living with no life line. Having been so earnestly building a life of our own capability, we continue to maintain it, and are kept in this self created ego trap. We feel fearful of break out because we have never known what outside really is like.So we continue to stay inside of this secure ego trap. I broke free one layer of fear, but have never broke out from this ultimate layer. So I continue to be in fear, yet I really want to break free so badly.

Here is this individual who is standing right outside of the fear trap, so free, so selfless.

"Why would you keep doing this? You make us so worried. They are going to do bad things to you," his mom said to him. " What is there to worry about? If they are going to do bad things to me, we don't have control over that."

"We need to act. We need to go through it and to feel every bit and details of it. This is the only way to know it( and get over it)."

I realize that standing inside of the fear trap looking outward trying to come up with something to prepare for the feared situation doesn't work. But this is what has been our excuse to stay in.

The only way to beat fear is to go through it. That's the only way to know every bit of it and that's how you can beat it.

"People thought I am not afraid.I am actually most afraid, but I would say I am very brave. We need to act because if we don't act,( the result of not acting would be worse than acting).

I figure what he mean was that if we act, the worse thing that could happen is to die,but if we don't act,the wrong continue on. The "something" he believes in outweigh his own existence.

This has been very clear in my awareness, but he did provide the one more enlightening step: "Act."

What else is there to said or analyze??