gem stones

Haven't been using gem stones for a while since last time when the effect got too strong.

Last night I used them on all of the 7 charkras. The effect is immediate. The muscle on my face twitch. My solar plexus gets a bit sore, almost feeling great. It really is like tranquilizer working in my body. In just a few seconds, I fell into a totally relaxing state.

My cat didn't see me placing the stones on my body. Normally he would just walk on me and find a spot to squize next to me. Last night, he seems to sense something and walked around me, settling somewhere in the bed, as if noticing something taking place.

I can feel that my body has been too tired due to the hard work and stress from work.

I had a long dream last night and a very deep relaxing sleep.

092510 luicid dreaming--flying in a tunnel

I have been occupied with work and have not been attempting OBEs, too busy being a boss and teaching at nights. A lot of things going on at work, pressure from internally and externally.

I do meditate daily and do yoga every week. My main focus has been to familiarize myself with a inner place of zero--the source of our being.

Every weekend, I go into nature to work on inner energy as well.

One thing I have found is how closely our body and being work together and affect each other. As a result, I found that sometimes I work on the end of the being, and other times, work on the end of the body. Both methods take me back to the zero.

I have found that it's very true that our mind (and body) really are addicted to anything that we can't let go. It's very important to be free from attachment and also right thinking, or it takes away the balance of our body, which takes us away from zero--the source of our being.

There have been some strange dreams, but not surprisingly, we remember the best when we are lucid.

Last night in the dream, I arrived at a huge building and all of a sudden, I became lucid and realizing that I am dreaming.

I know that I can fly. So I turn on my inner energy, almost like turning on a power switch, combined from my mind and my whole body, and then took off from the ground.

I soared around in the building and was amazed how large this building is. I didn't see anyone or anything around. I shouted: "Anybody here? Does anyone want to tell me anything?"

In a minute, I saw a woman sitting in a car. She had a black dress and hat of 1800s. I said hi to her, but she didn't respond to me. Then her face got vague and then I flew away.

I kept flying around, hoping to see anyone. I looked back where I came from. The whole thing is now looking like a black tunnel. I shouted again: Anyone here?

Then I saw two teen boys and maybe their parents pass by. While they were passing by, I tried to talk to them but they didn't appear to hear me or see me. When I touched them, I noticed that my arms pass through their bodies. I was amazed what happened and was wondering if they were not solid, or maybe I was not solid.

After they were gone. I was alone again. I flew away in the tunnel. From here, I don't remember the tranistion, but I know that I went up and down in another building, seeing and doing something here which I don't remember.

Just know that there will be some damages

Worry that something might go wrong? Worry that someone might shine over you? Worry that you might make a mistake? Worry that the smooth ride might come to an end soon enough?

All these ruminating or worrying can be saved just by accepting that one way or the other, things will not be totally perfect. There will be some damages here or there. Everything can't be perfect.

Accept that. Be humble. Be really small.

using zero as the gauge

I have become so sensitive to the change in any part of my body, particularly where it's tense, stressed, the opposite of relax or zero, that I could become uncomfortable and wake up in the middle of the night.

That's why it's important to be free of all attachment. Any thing you can't let go freely keep thoughts and emotions going, and in turn, keep your body tense up.

Then I go into meditation. I ask myself " Which part is unwilling?" I instantly notice the tense part. Once I identify it, I just keep feeling that discomfort and say "This is unwillingness." "This is this." Usually in a short moment, that tension goes away.

Usually as I notice the tension and when it starts to go away, I often feel the weeping sensation, maybe from the effect of something coming all the way up to my heart chakra and then my head, particularly my nose and eyes area.

As the tension goes away and as I have a fully relaxed body, I quickly become recharged. I go from being tired and exhausted to totally energetic and refreshed all over.

I think it's because the tensed body stops the flow of the inner energy. Once we let go, the body let go as well and the energy flows freely.

accept that everything has an ending

It is the ending that we dread, the ending that we wish we would never see.

Attachment is hanging on to things and hope they never end. Attachment tie us down so we can't take up freely.

Once we are free of attachment, free of fear of ending, including death, all our inner power will show.

Accept. Acknowledge. Let it. Allow. Be humble.