Are we in denial? That's why we want to be away from ourselves?

  For many years, all my free time was spent walking in the nature. Besides traveling to Asia to visit my family, I did not do much traveling at all.
  Since May of this year, all of a sudden I feel strongly to travel and explore. So I have done quite a bit of traveling, both locally and internationally,for the past few months.
  I could go on and on, taking advantage of weekends, as well as vacation from work.
  Then I realized something.
  "Am I in denial to the possible truth that the divine is right in front of me? Am I in denial to the possible truth that what I am seeing is magic and awe?" This arises from inner quietness during meditation.
  I was planning to go away for three nights to Maine. Right before booking lodging, I realized that this chasing after new places and new adventure, although fun, isn't really inspiring. More trips seem to only trigger the desire for even more trips.
  Is there a different way? What about trying out a different role and accomplish tasks for a change? What if I am a cleaner or a designer for a day, spending a day cleaning and thinking about my neglected place. Am I in denial to the fact that my place is already bed and breakfast and my weekend activity is vacation fun?
  So I withheld the urge to go away, spending chunks of time here and there steam washing the carpet, wiping all surface, washing the bedding and throwing out some old junks. While walking in the woods, I wondered again how this is different from a bed and breakfast experience.
  I had the range hood and bathroom sink faucet replaced. An area rug is added for the couch. The microwave was moved out of the kitchen to make room for the counter top.Some decor are added around the place. If needed, I go to brunch or buy special food to add to the experience. When I cook, I use my old but still beautiful dishes to place the food....
  All of a sudden, I feel that I am in a bed and breakfast already. My cat is an ambassador for the inn and it would be called Cat's Inn
  I am delighted to realize that there is so much creativity inside that I don't really need to go anywhere for new experiences.
  What if everything around us is the divine?What if this place is the ultimate heaven? What if we are God? What if we are totally free to create?
  Are we in denial?