Knowing is Healing

  At work, the one and a half month since mid September has been most intense. Three separate licening, national accreditation, and federal review are all happening in these 45 days this year. National re-accreditation of the center just took place last week. Center re-licensing is this week. The triennial review for the city is the whole week of the end of October.

  Before bed, I sit and see that the tense part of the body let go. On weekend, I still walk into the woods to go into myself. Once relaxing every part of the body, the last part to let go is the solar plexus, uptight and rigid. Once lowering the almost suspended stomach area, the swaying and shaking start, as the inner energy let loose. The rocking and flowing get the inner energy into every nook and cranny of the body. I am often amazed by this self healing, as the tired body gets a little sore for a while, and then becomes soothed, balanced, and re-energized.

  The same kind of soothing and healing also happen during and after a vividly meaningful dream or experience. They are often the type of dreams where it is full of light, as if directly underneath the sky full of warm and beaming light. The prominent feature is the bright, beautiful sky in the background, and in many of them, everything happens high in the sky. I and my partner (whoever they are) travel by flying, or flying in some kind of vehicle. One time I went high up taking an escalator. I went high up and then looking down, feeling very good and healed to be high in the sky. At the same time, I was strucked by the fact of doing everything high up in the sky.

  One of the frequest theme of these dreams is visiting a temple where I stayed for summer break when I was young. In the dream, the temple often become very grand, very bright, and even hanging high up in the sky, as I approach it.

  After these bright warm dreams in the sky, I often wake up with my body soothed and healed all over.

  Even before this unusual time, there were incidents where the workload and pressure take its toll. It can be too much, as if I am coming down with something. As I try to meditation, all the inner energy running around in the body like a storm going. I can see in front of my closed eyes the energy rushing around in chaos. Incredibly, this is also the time when it is the easiest to simply observe. So I would sit and watch with my eyes closed,letting the energy run itself. It is as if the energy knows what to do. As it runs and flows, I can feel that the body is re-balance, and re-adjust itself. The next day, I would be amazed that I am even better than usual, when the previous night I was supposedly coming down with something.

When knowing ourselves enough, the healing and balancing seems to become automatic.

Intelligent universal energy

I have been busy with trying my hands on a few different modalities--Angel healing, tree whispering, Tarot cards, and Reiki healing.

Having spent almost three years walking in the woods every chance I get, a shift in me tells me to start learning techniques to harness the energy. In the meantime, nature is still my temple.

I have only been using Tarot cards for a short while, asking questions about my family members and myself. The results have been amazingly accurate. The degree of belief brings out the accuracy of the results

Have just completed Reiki II Advanced, with Lourdes Gray, the widow of John Harvey Gray, one of the original 22 Reiki Master instructors taught by Mikao Ushi tradition. There are so many techniques and tools to use for healing and to improve one's own body, mind and soul.

Why all of a sudden this thirst and busy learning mode, so much different from the usual routine of walking in the beautiful nature, meditating, feeling the energy flow.

Energy seems to be an organic form of life itself. It cannot stay stale. Once developed and experienced, the need comes to flow, exchanged, or evolve further.

The realization came to me at almost the same time that divine beings, such as angels, ascend masters, Buddha, and Jesus, respond to prayers to help others, because they have to. Even when highly evolved, they still want their energy to be used and harnessed, not staying idle. Energy cannot stay stale. Sharing, growing, and serving are the only way to go.

For three years I was in this deep appreciation and intense awe by nature. While in the woods, I was often overwhelmed by thrill and joy. Once or twice in each walk, sobbing sensation would come up. So I would sob for a while, moved by everything in the surrounding.

I pondered about living in the woods, growing food, chopping woods to make fire, spending time with the sight and sound of nature. I pondered about moving right outside of the reservation.

I developed a love for leafy vegetable, especially organic, real vegetable. It came a time when eating is too slow. I started to do juicing, to get as much fruit and vegetable as quickly as possible.

I am fascinated by Dick Proenneke's story, who lived in Alaska wilderness for 30 years. I see myself as one of the transcendentalists, inspired by nature, feeling like very close to God through nature.

Then the Nonprofit Management certificate program study (sent by my agency) temporarily took my focus away, even though my routine didn't change for the past year. Now that the certificate program is over, the intensity of awe from nature has reduced, replaced by a thirst toward use of energy through methods and techniques.

In Reiki, this universal energy knows what we need and it will go to places where it is needed. It heals. It achieves outcome through intention. It knows no difference of time and space. It can be strengthened or called upon through symbols. In Tarot card, it taps into the quarent's energy and the unconscious mind. In meditation, the more you meditate, the more the inner energy runs it self and settles in the belly area. In lucid dreaming and OBE, energy takes you to other dimensions like magic carpet.

While doing all the modalities, I seem to be waiting for something, something that will take me to that place of awe and joy again, just like in 2003-2005, and in 2009-2011, a place where I know the energy will take me. Circumstances change, stages pass, but that place is always in me. Energy knows where my next stage is, because energy is intelligent.Energy is alive.

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A Spiritual Path with No Self Interest

Have just finished a nonprofit management certificate program representing my agency since last September. Have not been able to put much focus on my energy work. Having finished the certificate, I immediately went away to a Tree Whispering three day workshop to refresh.

During this past year, my routine of meditation, nature walk, and yoga continued. I also started to watch a lot of ghost encountering TV programs and Oprah's Soul Sunday program.

The consciousness of the world is shifting. Wherever I turn, signs of consciousness evolving are obvious. While among these large group of people coming for all sorts of spiritual workshops, I found myself no longer eager to share my journey. At the most, I mentioned the transformation but didn't go into details. If people are eager, they will find it soon enough. It's not about me, it's about themselves.

Once back home, I watched a documentary about Edgar Casey, the greatest psychic and prophet, whom has been unknown to me until now. By going into self induced hyponosis, he gave about 14000 readings over the course of his life, all of which contain accurate and striking details about prophet and major events of the future, including world war I and II. His statement included ancient civilizations or geographic sites that would not be found until long after his death. Pole shift of the earth that would bring great changes in 2012 was also among his prophecy. While reading others, he believed that he was reading into other's subconscious mind. Others believe that he was reading the Akashic records.

What struck me the most is that he did not charge for his readings, even though his family has always struggled to get by. His son remembers how his mother often did not know where their next meal would come from. He believed that everyone has psychic ability just like he did. Yet it will not work if it is used for self interest. If used for service, without any self interest, the greatest power will come through to help with the work. By accepting donations only, he saw his work as a service to people.

"No self interest," what a great way of living. I meditated on it and instantly felt great peace and sense of liberation. When concerning about self, it's worries, fears, and drama playing in the head. What if I could just put service ahead of myself. Stop contemplating making a living with spiritual work, because perhaps it is even a better idea not to charge anything for healing, helping, and serving others. If this is the way, then regular job is still necessary to sustain livelihood. I do not need much, just need to have enough to get by.

After going to sleep, I dreamed of my deceased father, whom I haven't seen in dreams since March. I would only dream about or see him in an unusually deepdream or very lucid state. In last night's dream, he has invited many Buddists to our Buddha Room on the third floor where the whole place was being elaborately arranged and decorated. My father was hosting a lunch for a holy monk who sat in a shrine meditating. I was there to help with the setting up. The whole thing feels very warm and fulfilling. My father proudly played the video clip that he took about my school serving children and families, the job he never knew I do now. The dream is full of bright light and vivid sentiment.

Perhaps this is my father's message for me that I am doing a great work that he feels proud of. I just need to make it special and connect it to my spiritual journey and practice. I just need to have the image of healing others with no charge. I do not need to worry about pursuing a different path in order to accomplish my work, because with no self interest, any spiritual path is a great path.

Woke up in another layer?

This experience starts, ends and feels different from a dream, I think I woke up in another layer of nonphysical bodies and was in a different reality. My deceased father was there. He is often with me or around me in an OBE experience. I took a train (for me, it's the embodiment of an energy flow that takes me along) to go somewhere. I became aware of the nonphysical body and was able to fly a bit and explored a bit.

I woke up in the early morning and found that my bed has turned into a twin size bed, not the queen size bed I have. I sat up and looked around, feeling very strange and eerie. My cat was next to me. My bedroom door that's usually almost closed was now open. I got out of my room feeling alarmed. I looked over to the bathroom side. A room appeared in the location where the mirror is. It is now a bedroom, and my deceased father was in it. I told my father my apprehension. He didn't really say anything.

I went back to sleep but heard that there were knocking on the doors of the neighbors, one door at a time. I wondered who and thought to myself "Poor thing, this person must be scared to be out there that early knocking on doors."

Then I went to a train station to take a train. Since it's still early, I walked around a bit and returned to the station to catch the train. My ticket says the boarding time. I looked at the display board. I only had 2 minutes to get down all the way to B5, which I understood as 5 story down. As I ran down toward the platform, I thought that I didn';t bring a book to read on the upcoming long ride.

Then I walked around and explored a neighborhood, I sensed a guy watching me. He is a scam but people are not alert. I sensed that he did something to people's car. I walked through this narrow pathway with three other women to avoid him.

I continued to walk. There was no one around at this part and it was still early and dark. All of a sudden, the familiar feeling of energy boost came over me and I remembered that I could fly. I was excited every time this realization came over me. I jumped up into the air and soared higher and higher with a lot of energy. I flew around overlooking all the buildings and neighborhoods. Then I started to lose height. I came down and saw a woman and a man went toward a hotel. They were like mother and son. They had a good walk and were contented to go back to the hotel.

Then my awareness came back to my bed. Someone told me that a yellowbook was next to my building outside and that probably is why I was woken up. I said no, that was not it.

Now is Forever

Whatever we do, it can only be temporary. We cannot do something forever.

Go deep inside of ourselves and stay there. It will become apparent to us that "this" is already perfect. We do not need to do anything at all.

"To be away from here" tires us out. "To be away from here" tenses us up. Do nothing. Relax. So that we can go on forever.

Get there now, whatever you want to be. Do not wait until later,for the next moment will be the same as this moment. When we ignore here and now and look to the next moment, our "being" is broken. Our well being is broken. We are whole only when we are fully here and now. This is true at this moment. This is true forever.

I feel this. I see this. I am this. I know this. Now and forever. Now is forever.