Of course if we are totally aware and present 24/7, we won't feel stressed at all because we would never overwork ourselves, and we also have a endless flow of inner energy to make us energetic all day long.
But once in a while when life really requires too much, this is what we find.
1. Unwinding
Sometimes when we are totally stressed and tense, we don't even know that we are tired. It is when we totally relax our body that we find how tired our body really is.
This really amazes me. I have found that if I am still excited about things from during the day, I think I am not sleepy and not tired. But once I get out of the bed to meditate, in just a few minutes, I find how tired and how sleepy my body really is.
Unwinding is essential. We are all busy people. If we don't unwind, sometimes we can't even do things that really help us, like yoga, enjoying cooking, exercise, or meditation. Our body is all tense and tight. In such tension, we would not even be interested at all in doing anything. We just want to be lazy. Our mind set can't stop, so we find something similar to keep it that way. So we watch TV to keep our mind busy. Or we find more things to worry about or think about. We might also eat or drink to feel good. We might not even fall asleep even if we try.
When we don't unwind, it's like we are not cooperating or communicating with our body. Our body and mind are doing their own things.
In meditation, we unwind by taking a few deep breaths, and then just let our body do its thing. Breathe. Feel what's inside of you. Feel what comes up. This is the unwinding it needs to set for the next stage.
2. Rocking and swaying
For me, once I totally let go of control of my body, rocking starts right away. I have found that it can be a bit distracting. But just let it rock for a while. It will stop when it's done, because I think this is the process of the inner energy trying to settle. So the body relax first to get the inner energy coming up. Then it takes a while to let the inner energy settle down on its own.
I have found that this rocking and swaying is the cause of a totally restful and healing sleep after meditation. I have related the rocking and the healing me sleep. They go together. When the inner energy go through the process of settling down, it finds its suitable place and that's what we need to have total relaxation and healing of our body.
But it can also be the other way around. It's because we are totally relaxed that we are able to rock and sway freely.
Sometimes it really amazed how tired I find I actually am, because I have worked too hard during the day.
This is one of the things I learned in this second around of awakening. The first time around, I was in awe with all kinds of happenings but didn't know why. This second time around, I am able to see what makes it work, and what doesn't work.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
120509 A short projection, false awakening, and a pre-cognitive dream 120509
This afternoon I had a short projection and false awakening.
My cat was nestling next to me. I was sleepy, and wasn't sure if I did fall asleep. In a while, I felt a pool of energy in my belly and the familiar sensation came. I knew I could shoot up. So up I was out of my body. But then quickly was sucked back in. I will it again and now was floating. This time I tried rolling side to side. But it felt something different in the way---it's my cat. I rolled to the other side, but it's not the usual side that I am out.
Now I am aware to still be lying there on my bed. From here I thought I was awake already and moved around on my bed and shoo away my cat and had changed my position to sleep on my side. Finally I woke up and surprised that all the time I didn;t move a bit from my original position, and my cat was still next to me too.
A pre-cognitive dream--
I wanted to share a pre-cognitive dream from a while ago. It is only when things happened now that I realized that dream has foretold the future.
They are making me the director. Everyone gathered in our program for the ceremony. The branch VP, my boss is here but I don’t really see her. Some central people I never see showed up too, including the big VP of the agency. Some told staff already that I am the director. I don’t know what happen in the ceremony but finally they just directly told me to see the few people. I didn’t really saw the branch VP. The few central people who I never saw before told me that I will.
(I am relative new and haven’t formally met the agency heads in this largest agency in New England. However, the dream has fore told the changes in the agency that involved the agency VP and the branch VP. It was strange that the agency VP, not the agency president, was there in that ceremony in my dream.
A few weeks later, the news came that the agency president was retiring. He then past away suddenly right after. The agency VP then was made the president. So it makes sense that the agency VP would be the big boss when I made the director.
Another thing strange is that I didn’t really see our branch VP in that dream, who was supposed to be the announcer. Just last Thursday, she was promoted to the agency VP, which means she will no longer be my direct supervisor.)
I have to go over to a gathering and the few of us took a route. Enroute I saw a coworker who has supported me and was the essential person pushing for me to be the director. She was on vacation and was on the floor laying around in an apartment. I happily say hi to her. She went into the apartment. It is as if she has done her job and now I need to move on. So We kept going.
There is some type of high up places where we either need to slide down to the lower part to walk over to the field or we have to go beyond a very high cooking stove. Some guy I like was sliding down. I was first and I want him to go before me. He go first and I followed. We arrived at a big field. There is a supervisor watching everyone. The task is to go through obstacle course and then split legs over the barrier. So I started to practice. There are people practicing, running, stretching, splitting their legs. There are many people practicing, and few spaces for me to practice because the practice takes up space.
In real life, there is no time to practice anything. I have to be 110% competent to be the head of the program, and I am.
My cat was nestling next to me. I was sleepy, and wasn't sure if I did fall asleep. In a while, I felt a pool of energy in my belly and the familiar sensation came. I knew I could shoot up. So up I was out of my body. But then quickly was sucked back in. I will it again and now was floating. This time I tried rolling side to side. But it felt something different in the way---it's my cat. I rolled to the other side, but it's not the usual side that I am out.
Now I am aware to still be lying there on my bed. From here I thought I was awake already and moved around on my bed and shoo away my cat and had changed my position to sleep on my side. Finally I woke up and surprised that all the time I didn;t move a bit from my original position, and my cat was still next to me too.
A pre-cognitive dream--
I wanted to share a pre-cognitive dream from a while ago. It is only when things happened now that I realized that dream has foretold the future.
They are making me the director. Everyone gathered in our program for the ceremony. The branch VP, my boss is here but I don’t really see her. Some central people I never see showed up too, including the big VP of the agency. Some told staff already that I am the director. I don’t know what happen in the ceremony but finally they just directly told me to see the few people. I didn’t really saw the branch VP. The few central people who I never saw before told me that I will.
(I am relative new and haven’t formally met the agency heads in this largest agency in New England. However, the dream has fore told the changes in the agency that involved the agency VP and the branch VP. It was strange that the agency VP, not the agency president, was there in that ceremony in my dream.
A few weeks later, the news came that the agency president was retiring. He then past away suddenly right after. The agency VP then was made the president. So it makes sense that the agency VP would be the big boss when I made the director.
Another thing strange is that I didn’t really see our branch VP in that dream, who was supposed to be the announcer. Just last Thursday, she was promoted to the agency VP, which means she will no longer be my direct supervisor.)
I have to go over to a gathering and the few of us took a route. Enroute I saw a coworker who has supported me and was the essential person pushing for me to be the director. She was on vacation and was on the floor laying around in an apartment. I happily say hi to her. She went into the apartment. It is as if she has done her job and now I need to move on. So We kept going.
There is some type of high up places where we either need to slide down to the lower part to walk over to the field or we have to go beyond a very high cooking stove. Some guy I like was sliding down. I was first and I want him to go before me. He go first and I followed. We arrived at a big field. There is a supervisor watching everyone. The task is to go through obstacle course and then split legs over the barrier. So I started to practice. There are people practicing, running, stretching, splitting their legs. There are many people practicing, and few spaces for me to practice because the practice takes up space.
In real life, there is no time to practice anything. I have to be 110% competent to be the head of the program, and I am.
Meet the natives--perspectives from simplicity
There is a new series on the Travel channel where 5 natives from a remote tribe come to spend some time in US cities, visiting museums, NY Stock Exchange, dining in style restaurants, staying in homes of affluent families....I think it's on Sunday nights
Along the way they would share their perspectives on what they see. The hosts also ask interesting questions to solicit responses from them.One of the questions is " In your society, do you have two men or two women getting married?"
While in central park in New York, they saw a homeless guy there and could not believe their eyes. Their comment is that there are building and houses everywhere in this land. How can this one person not having a place to stay? In their society, everyone has a home, because everyone would come to help build a hut when someone need a place. The final comment is that they can see no one loves him. This person is not loved in this land.
It is very interesting to hear things from their perspectives, as if from a pair of eyes before civilization.
Along the way they would share their perspectives on what they see. The hosts also ask interesting questions to solicit responses from them.One of the questions is " In your society, do you have two men or two women getting married?"
While in central park in New York, they saw a homeless guy there and could not believe their eyes. Their comment is that there are building and houses everywhere in this land. How can this one person not having a place to stay? In their society, everyone has a home, because everyone would come to help build a hut when someone need a place. The final comment is that they can see no one loves him. This person is not loved in this land.
It is very interesting to hear things from their perspectives, as if from a pair of eyes before civilization.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Everything just is, because I just am
Sometimes we hear that mind is a problem. Other times, we hear that everything just is.
I can only talk about what I experienced. I often use what I found in meditation as the gauge.
In meditation, when we sit down and begin to meditate, we just sit and then watch ourselves. The first thing I do after a few deep breathes is to just listen, just notice, just watch what's from inside. Allow everything, anything. I say" Don't tell me what to do. Let me. Allow this." -----I think this is the stage which we need to unwind. If we don't unwind, our body is all tense and we might just act on our edginess and get up and quit in a short while. (This is a little effort we need. If you say we shouldn't be taking any efforts, then we would quit every time or fall asleep before we can reach deeper.)
Even when we “notice” “watch” “allow” we are still doing something.
Fast forward to finally we arrive to our truest being, this is when everything really is effortless. In this point, we are so free and so perfect that we don’t need to do anything anymore and we know it to be true. We are perfect just like that. We are perfect in that here and now. We experience it that our truest being is when we really are not doing anything, totally relax, resting in our purest being. -----This is what effortlessness means to me.
In life, we have dressed up layers and layers of stories. We have emotions and many other things that cloud us up. If we act on these things, there can be conflicts and stir up even more emotions and conflicts. One thing leads to another. With emotions and all these stories, we might never be in touch with our pure being, our real self.
When we act from our true being or real self, it is embracing and open. We see all the stories, emotions in life as if we watch them through a higher view and know these are not our real self or others’ real self. These are just layers and layers of dresses and we understand and embrace these. ----This is what “everything just is” means to me. Everything just is, because I just am. I need to be the “being” first, so that I can see the first part.
I can only talk about what I experienced. I often use what I found in meditation as the gauge.
In meditation, when we sit down and begin to meditate, we just sit and then watch ourselves. The first thing I do after a few deep breathes is to just listen, just notice, just watch what's from inside. Allow everything, anything. I say" Don't tell me what to do. Let me. Allow this." -----I think this is the stage which we need to unwind. If we don't unwind, our body is all tense and we might just act on our edginess and get up and quit in a short while. (This is a little effort we need. If you say we shouldn't be taking any efforts, then we would quit every time or fall asleep before we can reach deeper.)
Even when we “notice” “watch” “allow” we are still doing something.
Fast forward to finally we arrive to our truest being, this is when everything really is effortless. In this point, we are so free and so perfect that we don’t need to do anything anymore and we know it to be true. We are perfect just like that. We are perfect in that here and now. We experience it that our truest being is when we really are not doing anything, totally relax, resting in our purest being. -----This is what effortlessness means to me.
In life, we have dressed up layers and layers of stories. We have emotions and many other things that cloud us up. If we act on these things, there can be conflicts and stir up even more emotions and conflicts. One thing leads to another. With emotions and all these stories, we might never be in touch with our pure being, our real self.
When we act from our true being or real self, it is embracing and open. We see all the stories, emotions in life as if we watch them through a higher view and know these are not our real self or others’ real self. These are just layers and layers of dresses and we understand and embrace these. ----This is what “everything just is” means to me. Everything just is, because I just am. I need to be the “being” first, so that I can see the first part.
Getting to the realization of "now" being "the truth"
Yes, when we really experience "now" being "the truth", everything becomes effortless. There is nothing we need to do, because it is when we are not doing anything, trying to go anywhere else, that we are in our truest orignal being.
When we arrive at "I" being " this", if we ask "what is the truth" " Is this true?" we might still feel that something is not clear to us. We might still feel this is not ultimate yet.
So we keep asking ourselves, "what is the truth". If this is not the right question, try "what's really going on?" "What's the matter?" We might still be slightly uncomfortable. Something is not right.
We try to ask the questions in another way a few times. Then we come to this question " Why don't you want to be here?" " Do you really want to be here?" Suddenly, it becomes clear to us. Our body at the same time also feels it, that this is the right question. Our body start to settle down even more, settle and settle, until it fall into its ultimate resting place, the now.
It is because we secretly don't want to be here. We don't want to be in the now. That's the thing that prevent us feeling being true. So we say "Okay, let me try to be just in here." Now ask the question again : "Is this true?" "Is this my truest being?" And now, your body feel it. your being feel it. Yes, this is the turth. "Now" is the "truth". "Now" is the truth and is the final resting place.
At this point, you will also feel that "There is nothing I need to do." " There is no where I need to go." "Just here" is our truest state.
When we arrive at "I" being " this", if we ask "what is the truth" " Is this true?" we might still feel that something is not clear to us. We might still feel this is not ultimate yet.
So we keep asking ourselves, "what is the truth". If this is not the right question, try "what's really going on?" "What's the matter?" We might still be slightly uncomfortable. Something is not right.
We try to ask the questions in another way a few times. Then we come to this question " Why don't you want to be here?" " Do you really want to be here?" Suddenly, it becomes clear to us. Our body at the same time also feels it, that this is the right question. Our body start to settle down even more, settle and settle, until it fall into its ultimate resting place, the now.
It is because we secretly don't want to be here. We don't want to be in the now. That's the thing that prevent us feeling being true. So we say "Okay, let me try to be just in here." Now ask the question again : "Is this true?" "Is this my truest being?" And now, your body feel it. your being feel it. Yes, this is the turth. "Now" is the "truth". "Now" is the truth and is the final resting place.
At this point, you will also feel that "There is nothing I need to do." " There is no where I need to go." "Just here" is our truest state.
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